phenomen a book

You ever get that feeling in your stomach? Or maybe in your bones. It shakes you down to your very core. It’s that little voice in your head telling you you’re not good enough. Or that things would have been better off without you. It got so bad, that I wouldn’t even talk, even sleep, even eat. It made me sick. That terrified me, still terrifies me. And I know I shouldn’t have listened to that voice, I knew I should have listened to you, but I didn’t. Instead, I let it get the best of me, and I hurt you, hurt everybody else we loved. I didn’t think that I was good enough, so I did something, that I never should have. I don’t know if you can forgive me, or even if I can forgive myself. But I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry.