Journal

  My Ahtah, I’m going to try writing you a letter. It'll be like I’m talking to you.

  Like when I was sick, and I was just telling you what I was going through, even though I couldn’t feel you. And then you were in my dream.

  So, maybe you can hear me? I don’t know. But I’m going to try. I got to Level 6 Tindin today. Do you train in a martial art?

  Tindin is completely different from Jendo. It’s baffling, really. It’s all about mysticism. Mysticism. I like that word, but it’s an adjustment to think of myself as a mystic. This is all so new to me. And my teacher told me today that I’m Talented.

  And I’m not alone. There are others who hear things that most people don’t hear. Like animals. Can you imagine communicating with animals?. There must be something I can do to learn to control this.

  Are you Talented? Are you trying to reach out to me? You seem to be good at it.

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  Do you hear people’s thoughts and feel their feelings like I do? Does it make you crazy? I’m doing better with it lately, and now that I know that the Shurwinn don’t think I’m weird, that they actually protect people like me, it helps me feel like I’m not alone.

  I told my teacher today about Darwin. About how screwed up everything has been, and about how I’m working on it and trying to understand how I got into that situation.

  I feel so much better after talking about it, and the Tindin beads really helped.

  It took something that was so hard for me to do—like, to me, it was actually worse than sparring. Talking was a lot harder than a match.

  It's like I've always been sparring with myself but didn't know it. Telling that story was so much harder than facing an opponent. Once I stopped and just talked, well, then I was Level 4, 5, and 6 all at once. Green, blue, purple.

  I’m a Purple Beader now! So, I wonder what the last 3 Levels are? Do I stop training and just talk? Ha ha.

  Oh wait, if I’m laughing, does that mean you’re going to show up? Ha! Ha! It feels so good to talk to you. I think I’ll keep doing this, so come visit me again soon, eh?