"I-I-I-I-I. . .I haven't. . ."

  "EEEEEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHH? All that time passed, and you never confessed?"

  I nodded in embarrassment.

  "So, how close are you to him?"

  "Ummm. . . We just met. . .one time. . at school. . ."

  ". . .Nee-chan, are you serious?"

  "I am too embarrassed to find and to talk to him. . ."

  "Wow, Nee-chan, I never knew you to be this type of maiden."

  "Don't blame me! I froze every time I think of his face!"

  "(Wow, my sister is so adorable. I love her so much!)"

  "Tell me your desire! Do you wanna hold hands with him?"

  I began imagining the exact situation that happened in my head, and my face turned red again.

  "Do you wanna hug him?"

  I began fantasizing about what my sister said to me, and I felt like I was filled with bliss and happiness.

  "And finally, do you wanna kiss him on the lips?"

  As soon as Yuki said that to me, I just passed out from the unimaginable joy of kissing the one person I like the most. I fall backwards onto my bed.

  "N-Nee-chan?!"

  I was smiling like a fool, lying on the bed.

  "*sigh* You really love him, do you. . ."

  "I. . .I do. . ."

  "W-What? I thought you passed out for real?"

  "Hehehehehehehe. . ."

  "My sister is malfunctioning. . . Nee-chan! You okay?"

  Yuki was shaking my body as she talked to me.

  I feel happy. I feel loved. I feel alive. My sister interacts with me like I am a family member of this family. She treated me properly as an older sister. She treated me properly as a sibling. She talked to me heart to heart. She teased me. She annoyed me. She gave me a place to so I could cry. She was there for me when I was searching for a place to be heard and to be listened to.

  I really do love this little sister of mine. She is the sweetest girl in the world. I loved her dearly. I truly am.

  "Nee-chan, in this modern age and time, girls can be the ones to be aggressive in romance!"

  "Uuhh, what are you implying?"

  "I'm saying you should strike first!"

  Yuki said it confidently as if she were the commander of an elite soldiers going on an incredibly dangerous mission in a warzone.

  "Nee-chan, be grateful, for I have decided I will assist you in your journey towards nirvana!"

  "Uum. . ."

  "For starters, we need to build your confidence!! Nee-chan, you are too timid! You need to be social and open so you're no longer terrified and frozen when you're talking to him and looking at him so closely."

  "Uuh, what do you suppose I do?"

  "We need you to partake in social activities! I'm going to apply for a part-time job in a neighboring town. You should come with me, Nee-chan! We'll be standing in public handing out printouts to random people on the street! That should be a good practice for you!"

  "I. . .I'm scared!"

  "Nee-chan! One must take action before it's too late! You don't want any more regrets in life, right? Maybe this is also a good opportunity to find out your hidden talents! Who knows what your talent is gonna be, Nee-chan?! Be excited!"

  "I. . ."

  "And don't worry! I'll handle all the registration! All you have to do is come with me on weekends to the store, and we'll do our job! The moment our shift ends, you can go straight home! I'll handle everything else!"

  My sister. . . never gave up on me. Instead of berating me, she gave me hope. Instead of scolding me, she hugged me. Instead of yelling at me, she offered solutions. Instead of cornering me, she made sure she was always on my side. I love my sister so much. She became the most important person in my life.

  I accepted my sister's offer. She seemed so sincere and genuine. I had no choice but to agree.

  And then on this weekend, the day of the job arrived. I was so nervous that I would fail the people who hired me and my sister. I was so scared that I would disappoint my sister after all the effort she went through for me. My hands were shaking, and I trembled.

  *knock knock*

  "Nee-chan, you're ready?"

  My sister knocked on the door to my room.

  Taken from Royal Road, this narrative should be reported if found on Amazon.

  "I am!"

  I went out of my room and greeted my sister. We went downstairs immediately. When I saw my mom, I just walked towards the door outside without greeting her.

  "Mom, we're going!"

  ". . .Alright, have fun!"

  My sister left the house and then greeted me outside.

  "Alright, Nee-chan! Let's go!"

  "Okay!"

  We walked for 5 minutes towards the nearby train station. We took the train, and then it's just another 5 minutes till we reach the destination. And then we walked yet another 5 minutes towards the shop.

  Yuki never told me, but it was a fast food restaurant chain; although it was a famous brand, it was a dying branch. They have a local competitor that blew their sales out of the water. They are doing sales and discounts and need people to promote them. Currently, we are the only ones applying for this job.

  "Okay, Nee-chan! Wait here!"

  Yuki entered the shop and was inside for a while. And then she came out wearing the store outfit. The outfit was in a red and yellow shirt, with red and yellow short pants, complete with a sun cap in red and yellow as well.

  "Nee-chan! Here's yours!"

  Yuki gave me my uniform in the same color. I went to a nearby public bathroom and changed my clothes. Compared to Yuki, I felt a bit tight on my chest, but it's not to the point of being uncomfortable. It's probably due to the fact that I have a bigger chest than hers.

  I went back to Yuki, and we are finally ready.

  "Alright, let's just begin, Nee-chan!!"

  "O-Okay!"

  I was nervous, but then Yuki shouted.

  "HEEEYY!! WE'RE DOING SALES RIGHT NOW!! IF YOU GOT THE MAIN MENU, YOU GET A FREE DRINK AND A FREE SIDE DISH!"

  "FREE SIDE DISH AND DRINKS!!! IF YOU BUY OUR MAIN MENU, YOU GET A LOT OF FREE THINGS!!"

  Yuki immediately attracted some passersby. Although they only looked in her direction as they kept walking.

  She started working immediately. I could only stand there while Yuki was trying her hardest. I was so nervous and I uttered the same words as Yuki, yet my voice didn't come out. People looked at me with weird eyes, but in my mind, I thought that they looked down on me. Here, my sister is working hard while I just stand there, frozen by my own fears.

  My sister looked towards me and smiled. She whispered, "You can do it, Onee-chan!". Her whisper gave me the first push of courage that I needed.

  "F. . .F. . ."

  "F. . .FREEE SIDE DISH AND F-FREE DRINKS!!!"

  "EVERYONE!! WE HAVE HUGE DISCOUNTS ON OUR MENUS!!

  "COME CHECK US OUT!!"

  I did it. I broke the first barrier. The first fear I had of making mistakes thus convinced me that I'd better not be doing anything at all. I can do this. Together with my sister, I can conquer my fear.

  This was such a good feeling. The feeling of accomplishment when you succeed in doing something you have always been afraid of. I conquered my fear. This was merely the first step. I have to keep trying so that I won't embarrass my sister.

  "HUGE DISCOUNTS ON OUR MENUS!! COME CHECK US OUT!"

  .

  .

  .

  At 5 in the evening on that same day, we finally finished our first day. I had changed into my normal clothes and given back the uniform to my sister.

  "Good job on your first day, Nee-chan!"|

  Yuki congratulated me as well as offered me a high five.

  "Thank you, Yuki!"

  I high-fived my sister. And then my sister went inside. She was there for a while and then she came out with her normal clothes as well.

  "Let's go home, Nee-chan!!"

  "Okay!"

  We walked towards the station and it took only 5 minutes. We took the train, and it took another 5 minutes. And then we finally exit the train to walk home.

  "So, how was it, Nee-chan? Your first day, did you like it?"

  ". . .If I'm being honest, I disliked it, but at the same time, I can feel something inside me is changing. This feeling of going through a change feels really good. I'm sure I'll fall in love with this job sooner rather than later."

  "Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~"

  Yuki let out a long sigh of relief.

  "I was so scared you did not enjoy that, Nee-chan! I'm so glad you did!"

  "Yeah, thanks to you, Yuki!"

  "But don't forget our main goal, Nee-chan!"

  "Hm? Main goal?"

  "Duuuh! It was so that you could gain confidence and courage to confess your love!"

  "C-C-C-CONFESSSSSS????"

  "Well, okay, it's obvious you're not ready! But don't worry, with my guidance, you'll be eager rather than being nervous about it!"

  "I. . .I'm fine. . .honestly. . ."

  "Nee-chan, you have heart-shaped pupils every time you talk about this guy!"

  "HUUUUUUUUUUUHH??"

  "Huh? Wait a minute, now that I think about it, Nee-chan, you never told me who this guy was!"

  "I didn't? Hmm, well that's good then!"

  "WHAT? TELL ME NEE-CHAN!!"

  "N-No, this is embarrassing!"

  "PLEASE! PLEASE, I BEGGED YOU!!"

  "NOOO!!! THIS IS MY MOST PERSONAL SECRET AND I WILL CARRY THIS SECRET EVEN TO THE GRAVE!!"

  "NEE-CHAN, I'M BEGGING YOU, PLEASE TELL ME!! I WON'T TELL ANYONE!! I WON'T SNITCH!! I PROMISE!!"

  "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!"

  We kept arguing on the walk home that nearby passersby were looking at us all the way till we reached home.

  Today was amazing. I felt like a human being again. I was filled with love. I was treated with love. And then I was able to properly do a job, an outdoor job even. I felt accomplished. I felt grateful.

  For the next few weeks, Yuki and I kept going to this restaurant, doing our job. As time goes on, I keep feeling confident and more confident in this job. I felt a change in myself. I was able to express myself more openly with each job shift. I was able to talk louder and properly each time as well. I feel so happy about this change.

  Yuki was right; with the right training, anyone can do any job. The key was the willingness to try. Never back down from any challenges. The mere thought of self-intimidation that you're not worthy was such a giant and hard wall to break through. It was impossible to do it on my own. Yuki was the starting point; she was my first gear. I really love my sister so much.

  . . . . . .

  But then one day. . .

  After school, I was going out of the house all by myself. I was planning to go to a bookstore in the town where I live that sells a particular novel that I was interested in reading. It was a romance novel that Yuki told me should motivate or at least plant ideas in my head regarding romance. I took it upon myself and thought that was actually a good idea. As expected of my genius and lovable little sister.

  "Hm? Hey, that's my sister!"

  During the walk towards the bookstore, I saw Yuki in the distance. I walked faster to approach and greeted her. She told me she was going out to meet a friend. I never imagined the place she went was near the bookstore I'm trying to go to.

  "YUUU----!!!"

  Before I finished uttering my sister's name to call her, I was astounded and dumbfounded by what I saw. I saw my own little sister walking with a guy. The guy was the one that I fell in love with.

  At that moment, I felt joy leave my body forever. I was suddenly filled with an incredible amount of envy and anger towards Yuki. I began to fantasize and imagine all the wrong things about my sister.

  Did my sister, the one who was always so kind and true to me, betray me after all? Was this all her plan? Am I being pulled by her strings all this time? Was all of this some kind of sick joke by my sister?

  . .

  There's this feeling that suddenly formed in my heart.

  

  
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  I didn't want to admit it.

  . . .

  I HATE MY SISTER. IT’S ALWAYS HER. EVERYTHING I DESIRE IS ALWAYS TAKEN AWAY FROM ME AND THEN GIVEN TO HER.

  MY FATHER'S LOVE? NOW MY DAD IS ONLY PROUD OF HER.

  MY MOTHER'S LOVE? NOW SHE WAS THE ONLY ONE MY MOTHER GAVE HER ATTENTION TO.

  AND THEN BEHIND MY OWN BACK, SHE'S GETTING ALL CHUBBY WITH THE ONE GUY I EVER FALLEN IN LOVE WITH?

  ENOUGH!

  I HAD ENOUGH!

  I HATE THIS GIRL!!

  I HATE MY SISTER!

  STAY AWAY FROM MY LIFE!!

  . . .

  After that, I went home. I never went to the bookstore, and I never went to greet my sister. That day was the beginning of my shut-in life. I locked myself in my room. I no longer talk, nor do I respond to my sister. I never talked to my family ever since. My mom no longer washes my laundry, so I had to learn it myself, and I succeeded.

  From this point on, I hardened my heart to ever being opened by someone else ever again. Full stop.