Scarlet POV (August 2020)

  I slept too much today I cant forgive myself for that. How can I ? it is my dang fault.

  And I am so sorry pathum.

  I missed the chance to be with him.

  Morning was usual , nothing new, mom yelling,sister growling and dad ignoring.

  “You look like you haven’t slept in ages.” Abigail said making a disgusted face at me.

  Don’t even think about saying crap about him

  “What?” I asked losing my patience, tired of the look she is giving me.

  “What keeps you stay awake at night? listening to his childish gibberish? Gosh I couldn’t be more stressed than be with him.”

  “You would’nt understand.” I shook my head in annoyance.

  “Why wouldn’t I ?” she raised her brows

  Don’t say it! You’ll only end up suffering for it!

  “Trust me you wouldn’t wanna know.” I smirked.

  Why the heck did I do that? Smirking at her? Gosh only way to troubles.

  “What’s the worse thing that could come out of a mouth that says that Pathum is adorable?”

  That’s it! I am gonna burn this bi*ch!

  God forgive me for my language.

  “You better watch that mouth of yours sister.” I said and she rolled her eyes.

  “Whatever tell me that which you say that I am incapable of understanding.” she glared at me as if to snatch my soul.

  “Do you really wanna know it Sister?”

  “Yes I would.” she said. I forced a smile.

  “You said you don’t understand why I am so interested in him right?” I asked her, and she didn’t even pay attention to me her face was fixed on her phone.

  “Whatever gibberish!”

  “It is because you don’t know what true love is.” she froze when I uttered those words. Realising the incident I spit some more venom.

  “Oh so you mean to say his love is pure and pristine?”

  “Yes and one more thing, he never chose to replace me for someone better or forced me to play dirty unlike your lovers.” I cannot believe I just said those words, she glared at me as if her eyes would pop out any moment. Her surprised expression was so satisfying eventhough a part of me felt sad for her.

  She deserve it

  “Scarlet, I hate to bring it to you, but your dream boy is just a dream boy, he is miles and miles away and he is just a piece of gibberish!”

  She stomped out of my sight after saying those words. She just came back few minutes later to focus on another target. It was my dad. So sister brought up the conversation which dad tries to ignores everyday.

  “ dad when are we going to have a proper meal? A proper breakfast or a proper dinner where all the members of family are together. When are we going to see such a meeting? Dad you must answer this, don’t try to ignore us’’

  ‘’ I don’t have time for this.’’ dad said.

  ‘’ you never had time for anything , don’t you lie.’’ sister said in a loud voice

  ‘’ She is right. ’’I replied supporting her.

  “ exactly’’ mom entering from kitchen said.

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  “ whatever .’’ drinking his tea dad said

  “Are you gonna keep running from us dear?” Mom asked him, he just drank his tea without answering.

  “I am scared of talking to women, cause I know I will never get anywhere.” he laughed, mom and me looked at each other while Abigail rolled her eyes clearly not interested in his humour.

  “Very funny.” Abigail let go of a fake laugh.

  “Just eat your food.” dad said not daring to look at any of us, and he kept eating his breakfast. While none of had the appetite or mood to eat ours.

  ‘’ I wish we had a proper dad who cared about us , but guess what ?we have got something like you, useless, worthless and uncaring.’ sister said and dad looked at each of us, she is not wrong , she must have been rude but she is not wrong. He doesnt cares about us like he need to . When was the last time he hugged us or shared a smile with us? When was the last time he cried with us? Never!

  Why can’t he be loving rather than this grumpy man?

  “True!” I said agreeing with her despite our differences.

  “For twenty years I endured it but I don’t think I could keep it any longer William.” Mom spoke supporting us trying her best to get something out of dad.

  “Mmm is that so?” he replied drinking water.

  “Mom’s not wrong, she endured for so long I don’t think she no longer need to stay at that state. She deserves a man who loves her, kiss her , hug her and someone who would take good care of her. She deserves someone who loved God as much as her and someone who would support her in her spiritual path.” Abigail kept saying and dad only cracked at her.

  “Spiritual path?” he laughed.

  “What’s so funny?” Abigail asked. Dad turned at Abigail and siad something which broke my heart in an instant.

  “You think you guys have a decent spiritual pathway when all you do is throw stones at your beloved sister’s relationship?”

  “Her relationship ain’t got anything to do with this?” Mom said loudly.

  “Exactly!” Abigail said staring at Dad.

  “Is that so?” he raised his brows and directed his gaze at them, while I was flabbergasted by his surprising comeback especially the fact that he knows about my relationship and most importantly to raise his voice to something which he is not much aware.

  Then how would he know about it in the first place?

  “Besides there’s no relationship between them both, it’s they have a strong connection online and that got nothing to do with her real life. She will get a righteous christian, a man who loves God more than anything.” Mom added further the conversation going out of our main topic.

  “Exactly mom, especially not a immature gibberish child!” Abigai said and smirked at me.

  “Let’s not talk about her relationship because she knows there’s nothing between them than just a mere attraction due to spending more time with each other. They will both realise that they don’t fit each other when they met, but we doens’nt need to go that far or wait that longer to see that. I know my child, Scarlet is wise enough to undersgtand that he is not the righteous man to marry. She will realise soon and will definelty let go of him. I know she’s smart enough to understand that he’s not the man that she would marry.” Mom said, every word like a blade piercing my heart one word by word.

  I looked at Dad his expression clearly said that he didn’t agreed to them.

  Please Dad say something! Please defend me, defend our relationship

  But dad just contemplated without speaking a single word. Getting tired of the mess they created Abigail brought back the main topic.

  “Dad don’t try to sneak away with this. Don’t think bringing her gibberish would distract us. There’s a special event at church this sunday and everyone will come there with thier parents and we are only family to have a single parent eventhough both the parents are still alive.”

  “For years you travelled there alone why would you need me now?”

  “Because William you are their father, you ought to be there for them.”

  “Instead you are never there for us, just a useless man.” Abigail said and I slightly nodded in approval.

  “ so I am just a useless man?’’ dad said and nobody spoke. Sister started crying and dad stood from his seat.

  ‘’ so I am just a useless man? Huh ?’’ dad raised his voice. Mom tried to calm him but it was invain.

  ‘’ she didn’t meant it that way’’ mom tried to explain but dad didn’t listened. He yelled repeating what he said before.

  ‘’ you are useless dad, you are useless when was the last time we had a proper dinner? When was the last time you hugged any of us? Tell me, when was the last time you held our hands when we pray lord? You never even.. Ugh I sick of you’’ Abigail chocked tears.

  ‘’ so I am the useless man? so tell me who put the damn food on the table? Tell me who pays yours bills so that you could talk to your beloved loved ones? Tell me who pays the electricity bills and do all these stuff? Who pays for gas ? it is this useless man. This useless worthless unloving grumpy man does all of that for what? Just to hear you say your daily prayers at me.

  Just remember it the next time you ever remember a proper dinner.’’ dad slammed the door and left us to thinking, he told us something to think , he really did.

  I am glad Abigail got the right response from dad and I feel ashamed for agreeing with sister for a while.

  Dang me!

  “What are you looking at?” Abigail said, I didn’t realised that I had been staring at her the whole time.

  “Nothing.”

  I excused them and hurried to my room, while mom caress her favourite child’s hair. Also saw her hugging her and kissing her forehead. She didn’t chased dad. I felt sad for dad, maybe deep down he wants a hug from us and that we were too busy to complain.

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