Being tired is..nice, that feeling of your awareness slowly slipping away as you relinquish the feeling of letting everything go, letting the burden of existing press on your every movement and yet feeling it slip away at every inconvenience

  It is an oddly…. freeing experience, to live in a cell, knowing that at anytime you can leave is…life is a great irony, we all have the ability to leave this prison, yet we do not, we wail and beg for sustenance from our non-existent jailers our prison the idea of one

  That, in my view is what makes the state of being tired, so….lovely, because this time you struggle against your inevitable blackness, your jailers smirk as they force a black sludge down your throat as you fight

  Uhh wait I actually don't know I was just put here by you to remind you, it should be pretty important if you did

  ..

  Fight for each breath of air, as though you are somehow defying the order of things, something tells you to fall, and you do not, it is better to add your own jailers than to face the cold hard truth that you were free, the mind boggling intensity that came with the realization that, you are…free

  You doubt yourself, say there are rules to the game, but you know yourself, you are terrified of the possibility

  of freedom, you revel in “laws” and “order”

  But in the end you are..free, I would like to think people who pursue immortality or such “impossible” concept, do it because of the fact that in theory they are going against a “law” that in the end, my statement has already written itself in the language “in the end” it will end

  I would assume the catharsis from just denying something so.. hardcoded into us, into the apparent laws of everything, finally defying such a grand thing would- should bring joy unbound

  But In the end the universe would not reward nor punish you for the “law” you have broken, it is indifferent, the thunders of the heavens will not come down to strike your impudent mind for opening the gates of Tartarus

  …

  Shaking off the offending pressure, light streamed in from the collapsing pile of boxes, causing me to groan in pain

  The light streaming from the windows, a kaleidoscope of colours originating from the pieces of a landscape floating through the void

  jumping down into the jagged splinters of the house before moving my way through the floating rubble, I leapt my way through, the shifting sands, navigating my way through it with familiarity, reaching out into the void, I pulled and with a slight pop, a steaming cup of coffee was retrieved from the blanket, without any fanfare the coffee was sliding down my gullet, its refreshing heat already burning away all the grogginess, with a sad sigh I continued making my way through the maze of rubble without much thought, leisurely moving through the fractured home, dodging the random fractals, whizzing through the air “hmmm” I rumbled before running straight ahead tracing a path with my eyes through the rubble, sighting a floating bar in the air, I grunted jumping up in the air and grabbing the surprisingly sturdy bar using it as a leverage to swing myself into the distance like a projectile

  After spending approximately three infinities worth of time in the air, I landed upon a surprisingly whole piece of the rubble with a slight undulation of its frame, opening the lone door on the price, I walked into the kitchen, the freezer hummed chasing away the deafening silence, walking straight for the cupboards I retrieved my beans, going straight into the routine slog of preparing my coffee, not too long after, I was done, a steaming cup of coffee in my hands.

  I threw it into the gaping maws of the void, the former did not come from nothing

  Once done with my usual morning ritual, I headed towards the drawers, retrieving a few eggs, a helping of my left over prosciutto a can of tomato sauce and whatever toppings I could find and immediately started cooking breakfast

  Slowly but surely breakfast was coming together the smell of (help me add something here) wafting through the air, causing my mouth to salivate and in the dim darkness of the flames light, the meal was finally finished

  Picking up the meal, I went over to the central table placing it down, heading back to retrieve my left over coffee grounds managing to salvage one more cup of coffee

  ?

  With all my components down, I dug into the hearty meal

  Once done with the filling meal I moved towards the sink cleaning all the equipment used in the acquisition of the mean and within minutes, I was done, cleaning my hands with a spare towel, I walked towards the door opening it to reveal the shattered landscape once again and without much thought, I walked out of the room

  In silence

  Jumping down the platform I was on and landing on the familiar bar which helped hoist me onto the platform, once again, I traversed the fractured world, playfully jumping from one platform to the other whilst performing different mid air tricks soon I found myself staring upside down at my destination, a lone door stood in the fractal, silently drifting

  Sighing I triangulated my distance from the door and leapt straight for it, landing cleanly on the door before twisting it open, gravity was back, pulling me straight into the now open door, and with what felt felt like a cosmic tug, and before I had registered it, my form was barreling through the air, sailing directly into a pile of clothes stands

  Groaning, I got up from my sprawled out position, shaking off the heap of clothes that had landed on me

  And soon enough I was standing, unbothered by any clothing encumbering my form and from where I stood, stretched out a hallway heading forward in both directions endlessly with nothing but clothes on stands till the end of Infinity

  With a small nod, I started my small trek towards what I was searching for, the walk stretched on, my footsteps echoing in the darkness the dark corridor, its colours only split into Grey's and blacks, walking in the darkness, I stretched my hands tracing over the infinitely recurring clothes they twisted and pulled to escape my touch, I did not reach out for them, it was of no purpose to do so

  Down the corridor a lone light was blinking and right below it a full get up lay on its rack, a dark wool hoodie on a grey jogger and a pair of sandals, what you'd expect from a particularly nonchalant teen with too little to care about

  With a sigh I reached out to grab the cloth, it tried to ever me, but my hands were already on its coarse fibers before it could revolt

  I was at the entrance of the institution, staring absentmindedly into the nothingness, my mind racing with extremely important thoughts

  I

  “ -Nis!” My lens of focus was restored, tuning on the gremlin who stood before me, her arms crossed, pouting

  “ I told you to meet me at the junction near the Starbucks! Do you know how long I waited? Now what are you supposed to say?”

  I looked down at the female who stood before me, her hands crossed and the small pout on her face would have been endearing, if not for her shadow which stretched impossibly long behind her its insides twisting and churning as multiple of the eyes suspended in the solution of shadow turned their gazes towards mine, I had stared for too long, my gaze was torn away

  “Sorry swordfish I won't do it again” I droned on monotonously which earned me a kick in the shin sending me kneeling “ firstly,I'm not stupid, you obviously are not sorry and secondly don't fucking call me swordfish again alright?”

  “Sure” I continued, my tone still a drone

  She just stared at me as though I had murdered her pet goldfish, disgust burning in her eyes before walking away “ wait up for me” I drawled, trying my best to force my trembling leg to walk properly

  I

  By the time I had managed to get over the pain in my legs, swordfish had already disappeared off to somewhere, shrugging, I continued on my way to my class considering the fact that she also offered the same course that I also offered, I had tried my best to look for her, turning my head to search for her was already hard enough considering how tired I was, as I was just running on caffeine and pure grit

  After a few minutes of stumbling into places I was not invited to I managed to stumble into what would be one of the places where I'd be taking classes for the next 6 years of my life

  Crashing into the lecture hall, I chose a random seat farther away from the podium to sit, immediately a wave of vertigo welled up from within, groaning at the pain I placed my head on my desk, slipping into unconsciousness almost immediately my head hit the table

  Opening my eyes to behold a steaming cup of noodles being siphoned into the mouth of someone you've never met was not exactly how I figured waking up would be but I wasn't one to complain….at least too much

  “ Are you even supposed to be doing that?” I asked the female slurping down the noodles

  “ What about it?, I mean there's no sign that says I can't in this exact spot so yes, I am allowed to do this” she answered, still slurping

  “sure there's some nuance I'm missing and your argument is frankly quite horrible, I really really don't care enough to argue about that of all things” I answered, groggily shaking my head awake

  “you know what?... I like that, let's just go with that, for you obviously do not understand the nuance to my sophisticated argument, once could not expect more from beings such as yourself” she answered upturning the whole cho into her mouth

  I stared at the “sophisticated” and “nuanced” human who was at my side and sighed “ I really don't understand, you've only known me for a minute or thereabout so it's just weird to judge my character and even if it were a joke, it's still just weird that you'd make a joke demeaning a person's intelligence, either ways it's just weird” I answered, retrieving a bottle of water and drinking it to banish my sleepiness

  “Or I could just be a narcissistic human who thinks everyone and everything is below me so there's really no need to know you more, because I'm a thousand times smarter than you and everyone else is a one dimensional character” she said, crumpling the cup with an alarming amount of strength before aiming for the bin that was near the door, shooting the crumpled cup into the bin

  “ That was…. a surprisingly good throw, oh yeah and by the way, where's everyone?” I asked as my head swiveled around its axis, trying to catch anyone else in the hall

  “Oh, you're cooked then, I'm pretty there's no class holding in this hall today so you most probably arrived in the wrong hall, proving my earlier point in your intelligence, I really am the smartest being alive, being wrong is just not possible”

  “fuck, missing classes on my first day, lovely, just lovely fuck that thing is going to give me an earful, okay thank you for your..whatever this was..I'll be gone now” I answered, grabbing my bag and heading out of the hall,

  and on the wall directly outside the hall a sign read “no eating or littering in the classes or in the hallways

  “ No rules saying I can't do otherwise my ass”

  Walking out of the hall, I navigated the unfamiliar corridors, trying my best to find the venue of me next class, hopefully this time, I wouldn't land in some random classroom, so instead this time I asked every person I could on my way to the class

  Walking absentmindedly through the maze like hallways of this increasingly frustrating institution, I lazily looked out for any landmarks which the people I met mentioned in their explanations and guidance

  A fountain slowly appeared in my vision, spewing all its water like some kinda over engineered tap which, in technicality is what it was, but I was morally and socially obligated to stare at it in wonder for at least thirty seconds before moving on

  I turned left at the crossroad heading towards my destination, I felt as though I had made a mistake, but after mentally rechecking my mind map, I went on, continuing my journey

  I continued on in my quest to find my class, the number of students roaming this lands reducing drastically because of the fact the hall was in a relatively deserted part of the school, causing little to negligible amounts of people to ever come to this place

  I ”

  I had reached another turning, looking around I spotted a vending machine, walking towards it, I immediately paid for a bottle of soda, gulping it down rapidly as I was flagging on energy already and would probably sleep off again if I were to reach the supposed class

  I turned left again, heading to a destination I did not remember and an increasingly weird road to get there, with fountains appearing and the overall aesthetic swiftly getting older and older but all that was still thinly veiled by the “normalcy” right under their noses. Still I had seen nothing, going on in my doomed adventure either ways

  them!

  I stared at the next turning a nagging feeling at the back of my head, and so I stood in one place trying to understand why I was feeling so uneasy “that vending machine was not supposed to be there” I spoke out loud, and with a stretch then a snap I was in a different place, I was in an obviously abandoned area with moss weed and flowers growing at where an idyllic scenery definitely once was, but this was also quite nice, the buzz of bees pollinating the flowers and overall just the smell of nature, without anymore fanfare I imagined my mental map, trying to know where I was "

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  I had made three consecutive wrong fucking turns!” I screamed at the top of my lungs, feeling exasperated at my own stupid, but not even the most experienced of people would actually think that an anomaly like that would exist in a school this populated would have such a surprisingly powerful and unsuspecting anomaly “ it would have taken quite some time for it to take me to where It needed me to go I had already taken four consecutive wrong turns, and I was still not halfway to where it ended me to be” I whispered as checked the time to know how long I'd been out for and if I could get to join the class even if I was elated, upon checking the time a disappointed sighh left my lips

  “the class had ended, what did I expect?, it was only normal for an anomaly like this to warp the time of observer inside it, that's two of my first day classes, missed on the first day of school, that did not bid a good relationship with my new lecturers or classmates” I paragraphed as I headed towards a random direction in this idyllic garden as the former anomaly would not try to ensnare me anytime soon or in any meaningful way be able to do that, the whole premise of the abduction was for the abducted to not know that they were being abducted, but introducing a former victim like me? It would almost be impossible not to do it forcefully, so with that in mind I skipped my way into the overgrown garden, sampling my way through the ohhs and ahh of the garden, the vibrant colours of the garden standing in stark comparison to everything

  “ flip, this is also another anomaly?, but I was delivered to this one like some sort of food delivery?” I shouted out loud, frustration evident in my voice, “ I one day ONE day! I managed to miss two classes in a row and two anomalies in the span of instants. This was an all time record, the classes!" I groaned, annoyed at the existence of everything, kicking at the dirt underneath my feet

  I sighed and continued following the dirt path I had magically appeared understand my feet, magic stuffs, don't think about it too much and within seconds I entered a _____ sunlight spilled from the glass ceilings, painting an idyllic picture of the walls of thorns and bushes around a structure, also theming with life, bees, birds, insects and nothing bigger flew around this place in an idyllic manner which it itself made this anomaly and anomaly amongst other anomalies, why? Mainly because if an anomaly interacted with the world, just their existence tends to unravel most of the laws the human connections felt on killing humans ..and most of the wildlife and if there was wildlife in an anomaly it usually was alien and extremely foreign not native wildlife of the planet, which only meant that the anomaly was actively trying to keep them alive which in itself was a waste of energy for creatures such as these, so it was either.. the anomaly was actively trying to understand the nature of the animals on earth, these anomalies in themselves were the most troublesome to deal with, having fully developed consciousness and thought processes, no matter how complex and foreign they were, or the anomaly was directly born from a creature of this planet which was what I was hoping for,

  mainly because if it was the former, I had no chance in escaping this death trap,but the latter?, it was possible to deal with our misunderstandings in peace and all that and considering they beautiful view, I had little thought of the danger of this anomaly and was only excited to see what was waiting for me at the other side, happily skipping through the path I stopped to smell the flowers and poke fun at the bees, although it always ended in a sting, it was pretty nice, messing with them over and over again,soon enough, I was at the door of the main entrance of the anomaly, taking a few breaths, I walked into the walled garden and on a pedestal in the middle of the room, “ ohhh yeah! Huh I managed to get a sleeping beauty anomaly on my first day!” I said as I rushed towards the center, eager to see what it was, and to my extreme disappointment and also confusion that instead, I saw a bird in the box, looking up in fear of my- from its perspective, humongous form normally anomalies that we're able to actively decide to let animals life or not inside their domains were usually very smart and often did it for a practical reason, but staring at the bird which shivered in its corner of it's box, it couldn't have done all that so easily normally, I slowly brought my hands closer and closer to the bird who started twisting away from the hand that got closer and closer to it, the bird shrieked and… nothing happened, the bird only reached out the hand pecking at it curiously and fearfully and so with a smile,

  I released my hands to form palm and on this palm was an assortment of nuts, the bird was obviously a pretty smart ones and backed away from the hand that held the fruit but soon enough, through my patience and persistence the bird took a few hesitant steps towards the hand stretching out food towards or and start frantically pecking at the food, a smile lit up my face “non now, no need to rush, I'll take care of you until you can fly again yeah?” I said as I slowly reached out with my second hand to lightly pet the bird on its head, “ don't worry you're safe for now”,I crooned at the timid bird

  Not long after, I left that clearing with a beautiful bird in my arms the way back had also disappeared and what was Left here was just a normal concrete path with no anomalies attached to it, heading back towards where I came from, I finally saw what exactly the place where I came from actually looked like, it was a quaint little outdoor shack surrounded by a pond in which vibrant lilies grew, I walked towards the shack to appreciate its rugged beauty “who know such a beautiful thing would exist within the confines of this school?” I muttered out loud, walking straight into the shack “ why don't more people come here? I walked towards the shack, probably gatekeeping by whoever , id probably also do the same so nothing too crazy and lo and behold, as I walked into the shack all my suspicions were confirmed as I saw a familiar figure reading a bunch of comics leisurely with snacks scattered around her, I stared at the mess on the ground and at the human who had caused it, she did not see me, I walked noisily towards her direction believing that I'd probably be noticed

  I was not

  To my bewilderment, she was transfixed on whatever she was reading and utterly unable to respond to my probing, shocked at her sheer situational unawareness, I tiptoed to her side, lying directly inversely beside her,my face at her head and my leg at the other corner of the room, I tried reading whatever she was reading, but to my surprise it was just walk after wall after wall of text which hurt my eyes to read, so instead of trying to comprehend what she was reading to make it a better jumpscare, I just did the next best thing, jumpscare her anyways “so…crazy stuffs right?, I cannot even imagine how he managed to do that” I spoke, adding as much sincerity into my voice as I could “who?, there's no guy in-” she stopped her brain probably shifting gears trying to understand what was going on and she just turned her head towards mine an uninterested and unbothered look on her face “what do you mean what did I do?You were so engrossed in this book that it was as easy as daylight savings to sneak around you and give you a good surprise, I take it you are surprised?

  A small moment of silence before she answered “yes I am very surprised, I expected to be able to sense anyone in this institution coming from a mile away so seeing you sneak up on my was genuinely surprising, maybe I am not the smartest in the observable universe after all…no I still am” she answered before turning back to whatever she was reading

  “how do you even say such atrocities with a straight face like that ..ughh i can feel the goosebumps for you!” I said as I got up to leave the shack and the girl alone but was interrupted as she suddenly got up, pointing at the bird I had just rescued and asked “what is that?” “Uhh a bird?” I answered with uncertainty

  Finally, I knew it, females would be unable to resist the cuteness of my cute little friend here and soon I shall take him with me everywhere I go and soon I shall become one with the wind!

  “You want to pet it? I asked the girl who looked at me with something in-between morbid disgust and murderous desire, the latter burning brighter than the former “uh that's a no then, See you later” I mouthed as I left the female in the shack before she decided I was too annoying to live and decides to pull out a

  So after dying almost three times, getting abducted by an evil anomaly, getting abducted by a good anomaly and almost killed by a female, I finally made it back to the main part of the school, where all the humans were, I let out a sigh of relief as I sat down on a bench, basking in the sun and the overall ambience of the place, it was so full of life, at least compared to the last few hours, feeling tired and hungry I decided to head to a restaurant near the school campus to enrich my body with the nutrients needed for my continued survival, and so I started on my journey towards the restaurant and thankfully this time there were no accidents to encumber my move for anything of the sorts

  I opened the door with a chime, bending down a little to fit into the small door frame, it was “Chinese” food restaurant that served some of the best egg rolls and dumplings I had ever eaten in my lifetime “good afternoon” I greeted the old woman at the counter who immediately answered “ Adonis! How have you been! It's been a while since I heard of you! How's everything, how's the family?!”

  “Everything is good thank you ma'am uh please can I have the usual I'm taking it away so please in a disposable package” I answered curly and politely

  “no,no, no need to worry this one is on me eh?, you've entered college now, it's a cause for small celebration, let me give you something” she waved her hand, walking towards the back kitchen

  I smiled “thank you!” I whisper shouted at the old grandma, my thanks coming from the heart and within minutes of my order she came back out with a package bursting at the seams with food, I tied my best to decline such a heavy favor but met with vehement disagreement I could do nothing but accept the gift given to me by her, as I removed her of the burden of holding onto the bag, I noticed her hands vibrating at an unprecedented rate, without commenting on this, I left the shop, my mood already ruined, despite all the free goodies I had gotten, soon enough I was at the cafeteria, the only place I was “allowed” to eat that was in a building and not underneath the sun or some kinda shack, sitting down,I retrieved the three packages she had given me from the bag and randomly choosing one to devour, opening the package sent me reeling as a burst of aroma wafted off it almost sending me into a trance and with a content sight I started digging into the food which lay before me a few minutes into the plate and realizing that I'd been b given a lot more than I had expected I decided to carefully place the other two portions away

  I'll eat those later, id probably warm them

  Once I was done with the food, I decided to look for sword fish before it decided that I needed my funeral right now, so,I disposed of the container which I used to eat the delicious meal and grabbed my bag to start looking for the girl, walking down the hallways once again, I noticed so many things I hadn't noticed at first, classrooms that I'd apparently missed, directions and so many other things that one would notice if you weren't in a hurry

  I wonder why those seniors gave me such unhelpful advice then

  As I was right now, I was walking a bit blind into this whole “search for swordfish” operation as I had no idea where she could be the cafeteria was my best bet but now that she was not there I was before of any other options except aimless wandering….and calling her on the phone but it hadn't really gotten a way to hypnotize it's voice through the phone and I, for one did not want to hear the screeching of the heart of the universe as I spoke to an Eldritch abomination about classes or something stupid like that, so I wandered around searching for her, after a few minutes of searching I had come to the conclusion that I would never find her like that so instead I decided to borrow the power of the masses and ask them if they'd seen her and To my utmost surprise I was met with positive responses, apparently she has made a little bit of a name for herself whilst I was tumbling around in the bowels of space-time, nice

  I was supposed to be look over it, but those accidents kept on happening, one may not even call them accidents anymore

  Following the directions given to me by me “nice’ seniors who were so kind to point me where I should go to find the unruly being I had somehow reached the hall for theater arts with a sigh and a heavy heart, I opened the door, revealing beyond it, a hall full of empty seats apart from the front in which there were judges who sat there their eyes vacant and immediately upon entering I hear the line

  “No mask, no mask?”

  I bolted out of the theater club, hurrying away like the building behind me was going to explode, feeling like I had made enough distance between me and the theater, I bought out my phone to call it, there was no time to act petty anymore

  I called her number on my phone, it rang twice before it was picked up “ hey! Adonis! What's up!” A surprisingly normal voice called from the speaker “both please don't fuck with me, why were you acting in that play? Are you genuinely mad?, I really do not want another one of your kind at your level to descend onto the mortal plane for God's sake” I answered, rapidly firing my points still short of breath at the end

  “Ohh come on the ritual failed either ways and I'm going to revive the children that died in the ritual either way so nothing lost, nothing gained eh?” It answered from the speakers

  And for the first time today, a mild feeling of anger arose from my gut “you will not raise them from their state of death and your contract will be renewed for this violation in your code of conduct” I answered

  “Awnn what did I do!, they were the ones that said they wanted to act the play themselves! I did nothing” the mockery of what once used to be my best friend pouted in her overly emotional voice

  I cut the call, trying to avoid the ragebait

  Taking a deep breath, I headed towards a random direction with the sleeping bird that I hadn't still named, as I was waiting for it to awaken so that we could choose the name together, after all it really wasn't my call here, and quite obviously the bird was pretty smart, so it had the rights to at the very least to choose its own name

  I walked around the school, seeing the sights and the sceneries the school had, but it was a university after all, I did not expect that many good sights, but it seemed I had lucked out as the number and quality of sights genuinely amazed me, that was until I received a call, after reading the name, my mood plummeted but I answered it either way “hey boss, there was a report of multiple casualties over at you end, report?,”

  “Yes, that's true for some reason I kept getting sidetracked by multiple anomalies that shouldn't exist in a populated school like this, so it probably placed those there to distract me, also if I'm correct we were tricked, it did not follow its own “rules” and directly made a way to offset them somehow that's the only reason it would say it can just “revive” the now dear students, currently I hard set myself in my own rules so I cannot take any action of the sorts unless I die” I said, slightly annoyed at my own incompetence

  “Well there's nothing else can do about that, you're the only one who can even come close to containing that ….. thing, we already forfeited our lives immediately that thing crossed over, the fact we're still alive us a miracle in itself so it's how it is, also the board of directors is saying something about proper punishment for your “inability to follow the mission objectives or something like that” the voice on the phone said with a bit of mirth in his voice

  With my mood already at an all time low, I don't not have time for those fools “ project ironwall- 065 compromised, will escape containment in 3,2,1” whenever you met the board again just recite that directly to them, you'll see the aftermath by yourself” I said

  “Alrighty then boss, it's time for me to go, already done the mandatory check in, it's time for me to disappear from here before you turn me into an impregnated quark or something” he said with fake cheer in his voice before ending the call

  I looked as the sun set on the tallest point on the schools campus, I stared as the orange light streamed from the celestial body, bathing the world in a beautiful orange

  “It's beautiful that such an unfeeling universe was able to make something so incredibly beautiful don't you think so?” I asked nothing but thin air

  But to my surprise the little bird that had been in my hands since morning slowly woke up, looking around in curiosity

  I placed it on the ground letting it get it bearings

  and immediately upon gaining awareness of its surroundings it saw me and started scrambling away, but after presumably remembering what happened before, it slowed down it's movements and only trembled in one spot, slowly I backed away trying to give the bird enough space to feel comfortable, making sure to only move very slowly, avoiding sharp movements that could alarm the bird, I slowly removed some ground up nuts from my pockets, slowly moving it towards the trembling bird, after managing to get my arms outstretched without causing the bird any fear, a waited as the bird slowly made it's way towards my arm and start pecking hesitantly, I did a little dance of triumph in my brain but dated not to move an inch unless I wanted to scare the poor bird, after eating it slowly stopped itself in its own wings slowly going back to sleep again, “such a simple life your life is, just eat, sleep grow, play that's all , you do not know the privilege you have, unlike us who complicate everything for no reason whatsoever, only if we could go back to being like you, our only worry survival, not whatever arbitrary worry we decide to give ourselves this time,l

  it's such an annoying world, I really don't know why I do …this, it's such a nice thing, to live to love just to exist is bliss, it is also the greatest torture one can ever imagine, it is such an Accursed life to exist with the human intelligence, smart enough to understand itself and it's surroundings but not smart enough peer beyond the evil of all things, like an old friend of mine will say, germs on the toenail of the universe given intelligence, only to realize our own futility in the grand work of things, isn't that a sad life eh?” I looked at the bird who was soundly sleeping on my lap and chuckled, “you're sooo cutttee” i muttered as I slowly petted the bird

  Behind me, a pair of footsteps slowly made their way towards where I was seated, their footsteps rhythmically hitting the floor, immediately I knew who it was supposed to be “could you for the love of God NOT walk like her?” I asked without taking my eyes off the sun setting,

  A pause

  And the steps continued either way “why? Aren't you the one who said I had to commit to the bit to understand?, going back on our words now are we?” The thing wearing the personality of my best friend grunted as it sat down right beside me

  “Sometimes I feel like there's no way you're a being from behind the curtains whose very existence could drive one mad with sheer scale, ….you're just so…stupid” I said while sighing

  “Now That's a little bit too much, I've been such a good girl, see! See! I'm in an institution for learning and all that I'm even acting like a human and all that, I do not understand why you're so grumpy, I'm not misbehaving or anything of the sorts!” It pouted, an indignant expression on her face

  “Yeah tell those to the children who are now dead because of your stupid antics, I'm sure they'd be celebrating about you brutally murdering them” I scoffed

  “ I was going to bring them back! It wasn't that much of a big deal!, and also I didn't murder them, they actually murdered themselves while in the middle of the ritual,I did nothing” it said, grumbling behind her teeth

  “ And how are you going to bring them back?, by hijacking the “information” about them and calculating their futures based on that information and using that information to puppet the dead body ?” I answered, sarcasm dripping down my mouth

  “Oh, at least give me credit where credit is due, I'm wayy better than leaving the body dead, it would be healed, clean and tidy” it continued

  “Aha exactly why I couldn't allow you to “revive” them it's just some useless form of puppetry, what did I even expect?”

  I answered

  “No it's not, it's what is going to happen in their lives either way in the end humans are only a bunch of synapses and electrical signals after all its very possible for me to calculate where every atom of theirs will be displaced for the next 40 years, I do not see your point” it spoke

  “Wow bravo, you lost the human in there where dies the possibility of chaos exist in this fractal of order you have created, it is funny how beings like you can only impose laws despite being the anthesis of everything that was, the human in that order that was the synapses and electrical signals was the possibility of chaos in any form, the potential of chaos, but you cannot or let us say do not wish to understand this”

  I countered

  “I cannot understand these creatures that give themselves the illusion that there is some order in this universe that their infinite sense of time is just a collapsing blip in the fractal of reality, you've seen this, you know this, so why do you play this game, why do you still cling onto this human life, a human can give the excuse that there is no such proof of that happening, but you do, you. Know, so why do you still stay here why do you still ponder morality, feed these bags of “carbon” it is a mystery to me, so contradictory, so…. fascinating” it continued

  “Do you know why you can never complete this disguise of what used to be my best friend?, you refuse to understand, it is a weird thing don't you think?,why do you leave yourself a way out, you're never truly in the chains, you just place them on your arms and act as though they hold you down, how do you wish to understand the real dread of captivity?” I asked it

  “Your logic is intriguing, I act like her in every situation this, even in the very conversation as it is, I ,AM. HER I am me your best friend who sacrificed her life for yours it pains me to see you reject me so much” it answered it face falling

  I chuckled “do you think I'm stupid?, I'm pretty sure you know this but the reason she always pouted when angry with me was because she hated frowning, she always wanted to be loved by everyone would turn on her and sneer and frown you knows this buy you do not allow your rules to encapsulate this, instead you run your stupid calculations and it causes cracks in that your facade, for some reason you are afraid of losing that your boundless simplicity to enter this bound complexity you leave yourself a way out a way to trick the rules, your rules, any real human does not have such means, every second has no taksie backsies you know this and yet you deny it, that is how to truly be human, lock your own chains and then you'll understand” I breathed, my mouth turning dry

  Silence

  “Hmm? No more arguments?” I quipped

  “You fascinate me mirror o mirror, you limit yourself in this limiting for, even after having witnesses the boundlessness of Infinity an ant who has operated the mind of a human deciding to go back to being a human, you do not do it for purposes like curiosity like myself, no, you do it for some form of comfort, this is unprecedented, an abnormality beyond my comprehension, fascinating beyond anything the human race has to offer, I wish to understand your reason, what was so freeing about being limited that you'd sacrifice your infinity everyday to live in something so…mundane “ it answered abruptly

  “Sooo what's that supposed to mean?” I asked it

  “I shall follow your advice little one, I shall place my own chains on to understand this “mortality” you speak of and the joy you gsin from it I want to understand it, to know it, to see it in its entirety, thank you, mirrored one

  And she collapsed on the floor, her body suddenly losing all its tension, rushing forward I caught her body right before it hit the ground my mind whirring

  Impossible, there's no way it just-

  The body stirred, warmth coming off the body once again and all of a sudden the eyes snapped open, staring directly mine, then it smiled…”let us have this adventure together!”

  I dropped the body letting it hit the floor harshly “owch” came the muffled reply from her

  My head swam dizziness suddenly assaulting me

  All of a sudden, I grabbed a metal pipe from the rubble around me, walking slowly, the metal pipe sending sparks flying on the floor

  “Oh? I had the thought that you'd kill me, but you should know that wouldn't do anything” she said

  But I could hear her frantic heartbeat, the shortening of her breath

  I lunged, the pipe heading straight for her heart, but it does it, fear hitting it like a truck for the first time in its existence, it was a mess without a word I lunged once again but this time it could only watch helplessly and fearfully as the sharp top came down onto her chest, then I stopped

  And smiled “welcome to mortality”