Chapter 8
Night after night, I keep getting nightmares that drowned me in sorrow and agony until I have suicidal thoughts but every time i`m thinking of it her face comes to my view. Okaa-san smiles and cheerfulness that she showered me every time i`m down even if I know that behind those smiles are tears every night. All this thoughts of her keeps me from the edge. And now that I was given a second chance to live, I promise to myself that I will be strong and move forward but the memories of that dreadful event still lingers in the shadows, waiting for a chance.
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The smell of disinfectant and medicine lingers on my nose as I woke up from my nightmare. I observed around to confirm where i`m at right now. And all the white things and equipment like from the hospital are around me, wait I know that I fainted and maybe force log out but to have a setting like i`m on coma, really?!
Before I even sit up on my bed the door opened and a doctor-san and two nurse onee-san comes to my view. Doctor-san asked me questions about what do I feel, how`s my head or something like what doctor usually ask while the two nurse onee-san have clipboards and checking my vital signs like heart pulse and the other machine around me.
When I asked doctor-san on how long I’ve been out he just said that it was almost half day already. I panic out and trying to find my chair to go back but doctor-san force me to rest as he inject something on my dextrous that makes me weak and sleepy but my anxiety just increase more because I might have another nightmare.
I keep fighting the sedative by my own sheer willpower to stay awake after they got out. I feel like i’m in a paranoia right now, cold sweat dropping and creepy feeling keeps me stay awake. This set up is like when I was in the hospital when I got into an accident with Okaa-san. I shrugged off the feeling but keep my composure and calmness.
Hours have pass but I’m not still sleepy but paranoid with blood shot eyes wide open and waiting for something to happen as my worries increase. Then doctor-san came again and some of the buff agents help me with my chair and dextrous as we moved out of the room and proceed to a place like where I get body scan or CAT scan I don’t know.
After series of test I was back again in my white room waiting for some officials from Neos. Right now I’ve been calculating how much time in Edean have pass and probably Leyla will nag me for what happened here. I pray for Minea for strength and help.
Right now i`m being interviewed but it`s more like being inquest as a captured agent from other country and the missing part are the table, that hanging light or table lamp and a dark room with glass. They asked several thing like what happened inside, what I did and other things concerning that single event. I explained to them what I did plus my hospital records that I remembered when I got hospitalize and my sudden mental breakdown or so.
I have some meeting to other doctors like psychiatrist and psychologist, i`m not that crazy or anything but that ink blot is annoying to talk like why would you ask a person what did they saw in that ink blot, it was just and ink blot you know but I didn’t stress this out because I might raise another flag that will delay me from being online for hours.
After that questioning I was discharge by the doctors that check me and per order of Neos, but I know that they find something interesting on what did I do, well I was also eager to see what happened to me. I was accompanied by Jean-san again and we have little talk about what happened to me as we ride back to my condo. The infirmary is also connected to their lab or something like where they research but I didn’t push more on this subject.
As we arrived I asked her for us to eat first because i`m feeling so empty which she agreed with. Many players come and go as usual but now it`s desolated except for the employee not that I didn’t mind but i`m so late for the event right now. After we arrived at my room Jean-san give some advice on playing game and real life which I take time to think.
As I got online I check first what on Edean happened to me. A notif came to my view that stating that swarm season is beginning so I didn’t read much and the next is what surprises me.
After reading my system boost I feel like I gain power like one of the most famous anime hero that has yellow hair or something. As I lift my giant axe with my left arm I dash towards the mini boss and cut it down but it block my attack and repelled me. I continue our exchange while taking out all of its minion that is near me.
I feel so light now as I fight with all that I can from dodging to blocking, attacking to countering I keep all my emotion being poured out to this fight like killing my nightmares that hunted me for several months. I just keep fight for my life and destroy all of the ant that blocks my path. The mini boss also starts to slow down as I keep giving it heavy axe swing all over its body.
On my last 100 mana energy I dismembered its head from neck with an axe throw as I received a swing from its claw that send me flying on the ceiling and all of my attack that I have given earlier has paid off. My durability if falling fast as I keep receiving damaged around me when i have fallen down. Notification and other things are keep popping up but I sweep them as I retrieve the head and the core but I regret leaving the arms of the destroyer but I can’t waste more time.
My durability is now on red line that is one 200 flat while my energy keeps decreasing to 70 and if I cancel out this boost I might get destroy so I take the risk and run towards the exit. My team was already gone now and also Leyla so I didn’t regret any of this.
Jumping and dodging from all the attack around me is hard especially now that I lost both my arms. I have no means of defence except evading which keeps me alive until now. Then I think back when I was in the same position with Okaa-san, am I able to save her if I have the power to do so.
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Leyla`s POV
Damn that tin head, he is not thinking of things clearly. He said that he didn’t want to be hero but on the last minute he still do it. Is there something wrong in his head?
When he gets back here I will definitely scold him for being stupid and dumb also he will buy me all the sweet and fruits I want when he get back so he better be back or I will double this punishment.
“it`s okay Leyla, I know your companion will come back again even if not the same”
Byume said as he comfort me after we arrived at the guild hall. Everybody is exhausted and sad about what happened. The most affected are the two guys that carry the girls away from that hole.
But I know Raiser will do the same but he better live because i`m his guide and I don’t allow him to die.
“I`m okay Byume and i`m not worried about him or anything coz I know he won’t die for sure.”
He better not die.
“You did really trust him”
“Of course I do trust him besides he is the nicest person I have ever seen so far except for some people I know.”
Yeah he is the nicest one of the travellers I encounter except for Chloe.
“well I do also agree with you and almost all new world traveller tend to be arrogant or between those lines but your companion do really care about you in the end even if he tends to ignore you, as a guy I do understand one thing about his attitude earlier.”
“Really?! I mean, I really don’t get why he would always ignore me when something happened especially this morning, he didn’t wake up for almost 3 days and he didn’t said something about it.”
I`m he`s guide that the goddess Minea has chosen for him so why would he hide things from me.
“He doesn’t want you to worry about him that much like right now.”
After he said that I feel my mind gone blank for a while.
“really but i`m not worrying much about him besides if something happened to him you know what will happened also right.”
“Yeah, I know that because I gotten send back forcibly a few times when Chloe is just starting and she is also clumsy from the start but get the hang of it quickly.”
“Hmp, well Raiser didn`t die on his first days here because i`m with him and I also help him with his body and repair so i`m knowable about this, we even dug out magic jewels and I have my share from discovering them fu fu fu fu.”
“Really?! That was rare to receive that jewels and even finding them. So what will you gonna do with them, most thing that we do are wand or accessories to power us up right.”
“of course I will do that and also Raiser will craft me thing that uses jewels so he better live and come back here quickly.”
He better come back, hhmm… I didn’t think of that wand thing but accessories will be good, better asked Raiser to craft me a wand and other clockwork things that he can do.
“Sorry for all the trouble Leyla, i`m really sorry if only I was stronger maybe, just maybe we could---“
“Stop it Chloe it wasn’t your fault it was just we are all exhausted from the earlier fight and besides Leyla didn`t really blame any of you guys so cheer up”
Byume was right I didn’t blame any of them even if they were weaker at least they help us in many ways than they can.
“But Byume i`m the one that invite him and so ---“
*slap*”would you just shut up about blaming yourself, Raiser choose to save us all rather than let everybody die, beside he knows what is he doing even though he doesn`t looks like the one that think about things. So stop moping around”
Then the rest of our teams` expression soften a little from what I said, they better be or I will scold them for being sad after all the thing that Raiser did to them.
“Thanks Leyla, I just feel guilty and all.”
“Don’t worry about that besides we are all worried about Raiser.”
“So… you did… worry about me…Leyla”
I know that voice but it`s ragged and distorted but i`m sure of it. Then I turned around and I saw Raiser standing beside the guild`s door but the thing is.
“RAISER!!! What happened to you and your arms are missing!?”
I`m happy to see him even if he`s sometimes cold at me.
“Don’t worry about this, wait you really do worry about me right.”
“Of course NOT!!! You stupid big can!!!”
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A/N
Yes!!!
YESS!!!
finally we are going somewhere here well technically. anyways after reading things around forums i cut down my tables but i still not good at editing though so bear with my english...
i will still update but not that this daily coz there are still things i need to tend to.
also i`m trying to make the book cover so yeah that`s all.
