They were married in the spring of ’85, in a county office with flickering fluorescent lights and a clerk who barely looked up long enough to confirm their signatures. Noel signed Stowers out of reflex, caught herself, scratched it out, and rewrote Peters in cramped, careful letters. The pen shook a little in her hand; she told herself it was just the cheap plastic.

  Tyson squeezed her fingers when they stepped back from the counter, his palm warm and dry, his voice low in her ear. “You sure?” he’d asked earlier that morning, in the truck outside. “Last chance to run.” It had been a joke, the kind he used when things were too serious to look at straight on.

  She had stared at his profile, at the scar near his jawline that only showed when he smiled, and decided there was nowhere left to run anyway. Caliber had their names, their faces, their history. The only thing she could change was the label stapled on top. She chose his.

  Peters was common, forgettable. That was the point. They celebrated with cheap tacos eaten in the cab of the truck, parked in a half-empty lot outside a strip mall in Boulder Park, the sun hanging high and unforgiving over a sky that seemed too large for anything human to feel safe under. Tyson raised a paper cup of flat soda in a mock toast.

  “To boring lives,” he said.

  Noel clinked her cup against his, the carbonation stinging her nose. “To nobody ever asking where we came from.”

  He nodded once, expression sobering in that way it did when something felt like a promise. “And to nobody ever finding out.”

  They drove south that day until the land flattened and browned and the air tasted of dust and road heat, until they reached a town small enough to forget them and big enough to let them disappear inside its noise. Tyson found a shuttered garage with a For Lease sign hanging crooked above the bay doors, and something in his face softened when he stepped inside—like he recognized the smell of motor oil and steel and faded rubber as a language he’d always spoken.

  “This’ll do, just fine,” he said simply.

  Noel watched him walk the perimeter, tapping walls, checking outlets, counting bays, his mental calculator spinning. In Beirut, he had been a Staff Sergeant in charge of trucks and men and schedules. Here, his gaze slid over the space with the same assessing precision, only now the enemy was overhead costs and parts suppliers instead of mortars and small arms fire.

  Within three months, P.A. & D. had a hand-painted sign, a set of regulars, and a reputation for honest work delivered on time. Tyson did most of the front-facing labor—talking to customers, crawling under hoods, explaining repairs in clean, simple sentences that made people feel less stupid about not knowing how their own vehicles worked. Noel took the bays in the back, where the wiring and electronics lived. She learned quickly how to strip down dashboards, how to coax life out of starter systems, how to install alarms and kill switches in ways that looked stock-standard but weren’t.

  She built their home the way she built their security systems—one layer, then another, then one more hidden behind it. The rented house, a modest single-story on the edge of town, slowly transformed under her hands. Deadbolts became reinforced lock cores. Windows earned sensors disguised as paint chips. The breaker box acquired an extra panel that wasn’t on any blueprint, routed to a set of emergency batteries she’d acquired through a dodgy surplus vendor in Riverside. Tyson teased her, sometimes, about turning their place into a bunker, but he never told her to stop. He installed extra braces in the walls, reinforced the doorframe, taught her which parts of the house gave the clearest fields of view. He also showed her how to shoot.

  They drove into the desert for that, picking a stretch of empty scrub where the horizon ran unbroken in every direction. Noel stood with a pistol in her hands that first afternoon, the weight of it unfamiliar and heavier than its mass justified. Tyson’s voice was calm behind her, his hands adjusting her grip, correcting her stance.

  “Don’t fight the recoil,” he said. “Ride it. Like waves.”

  Her anxiety would set in, taking her back to Beirut, forcing her to drop the weapon at her side.

  “Just take it slow. Slow is smooth. Smooth is safe, remember. Slow.”

  She fired, flinching at the crack. The shot kicked up dust two feet left of the makeshift target; a rusted oil drum. Tyson didn’t laugh. He nodded once, as if she’d passed some preliminary test, and had her try again.

  By the time Nolan was born in 1989, the house had three emergency exits Noel trusted and two she didn’t, a network of motion sensors keyed to a control box beside her bed, and a hidden compartment under the floor in the master bedroom just large enough to hide a duffel bag and a rifle. When the baby came home from the hospital, swaddled and loud and impossibly fragile, Noel stood over his crib and checked the angles of the room the way she might have checked a prototype’s stress points.

  Tyson found her one night, standing barefoot on the nursery rug at three in the morning, staring at the baby monitor’s red light.

  “You’re allowed to sleep, you know,” he said, leaning in the doorway, arms crossed loosely over his chest.

  She shook her head. “I sleep plenty, actually. Being careful never hurt.”

  He stepped into the room, brushed his fingers along her arm, and followed her gaze to the monitor. “Nobody knows we’re here, Noel. There’s careful, and then there’s—”

  “People always know more than we think they do,” she murmured. “Don’t let them fool you.”

  He didn’t argue. Instead, wrapping his arms around her from behind, resting his chin on her shoulder, both of them watching Nolan’s tiny chest rise and fall in the shadowed crib. The boy snuffled, flailed a miniature fist, then settled again. The rhythm of his breathing became a metronome against which their fear measured itself.

  When Tyler arrived in 1991, Noel felt something new: not just love, not just protectiveness, but a kind of terror she didn’t have language for. Two lives now, orbiting theirs, fragile and soft and oblivious to the sharp edges of the world their parents had fled. She buried the old life so deeply she sometimes questioned whether it had ever been real. Beirut became a series of disconnected sounds and images in the back of her skull; sirens and sand and the bone-deep heat of a sunrise seen from a base that no longer existed. Her mother’s face blurred around the edges. She told herself that was mercy.

  The boys grew. Southern California gave them blue skies, dusty ball fields, chain-link fences, and the steady hum of traffic on nearby highways. Tyson taught them how to throw a football, how to ride bikes, how to identify which strangers you never let get close. Noel taught them to lock doors automatically, to memorize emergency routes, to trust their instincts when someone’s smile didn’t match their eyes.

  By 1995, Nolan had grown into a wiry six-year-old with his father’s stubborn jaw and his mother’s intensity, while four-year-old Tyler had a quieter gaze and a tendency to drift into thought even in the middle of cartoons. When Noel and Tyson enrolled them in martial arts, Nolan took to the structure and physicality immediately, treating every drill like a mission. Tyler tolerated it for exactly three classes before announcing, in a carefully measured tone, that he would rather enroll in chess club a year later.

  “Chess club?” Tyson repeated, brow raised, grease still on his forearms from the shop.

  “Yes,” Tyler said, serious as a judge. “It’s strategy. You like strategy.”

  Tyson’s eyes flicked to Noel, a smile tugging at one corner of his mouth. “Kid’s not wrong.”

  So Nolan bowed in white belts and learned to kiai, while Tyler hunched over plastic boards in the school library, tiny fingers hovering thoughtfully over pawns and bishops. Both skills, Noel decided, were worth having.

  In 1996, Tyson took them fishing. He had been talking about it for months, a kind of slow, private dream he nurtured between oil changes and brake jobs. One crisp morning, he woke the boys before dawn, packing them into the truck with a thermos of coffee for himself, hot chocolate in a cracked plastic jug for them, and a cooler half full of ice. Noel nearly stopped him at the door, the old reflexes screaming that getting all three of her family members into one vehicle and sending them out into the open was madness.

  “Come with us,” Tyson suggested gently, reading the fear on her face as easily as he read a service manual. “I can’t promise the fish will cooperate, but I can promise you one hell of a sunrise.”

  The lake they chose was two hours east, a widening where a quiet river slowed enough to pretend at being something grander. The water lay smooth as glass when they arrived, mist curling above the surface in translucent ribbons. Noel stood on the shore with a line in her hands and something inside her went unexpectedly still. Not numb. Not blank. Just…quiet.

  She watched Tyson show the boys how to bait hooks and cast lines, his voice patient, his posture relaxed in a way she hadn’t seen since before Beirut. Nolan nearly fell into the water twice. Tyler asked how long they had to wait before the fish “felt like cooperating.” Noel laughed, genuine, heartfelt laughter, when a startled carp nearly yanked the rod out of Tyson’s hands.

  They went back the next year, and the next, until the rhythm of those annual trips became a private family holiday. The boys grew taller; their casts grew further; Tyson’s hair began to show a few threads of gray along the temples. Noel built new rituals around those journeys: checking the truck’s undercarriage twice, scanning the roads for tailing vehicles, packing an extra duffel of supplies and cash “just in case.” She never stopped planning escape routes, but the water helped.

  The world shrank to four people, a small shop, a lake, and the wide, indifferent desert.

  Their world expanded again on a Tuesday evening in 1997, when Noel walked past the TV just as a local news anchor’s tone turned somber.

  She had been in the kitchen, sorting through a stack of Tyson’s shop receipts, when his voice carried in from the living room—tight, urgent, the way it got when the past clawed up without warning.

  “Noel. You… you need to see this.”

  She wiped her hands on a dish towel and stepped into the doorway. The television screen showed a grainy photograph of a man in his mid-forties, stiff smile, lab badge visible but blurred by the station’s watermark. No name. Just a chyron that read:

  “BILLINGS POLICE SEEK PUBLIC HELP IN IDENTIFYING MURDER VICTIM.”

  Noel’s stomach dropped through the floor.

  Her vision tunneled. Eric. Older, worn, hair thinner—but unmistakably Eric Ducks. Her breath caught without sound.

  The anchor’s voice rolled on, smooth and professional:“Authorities in Billings, Montana, are asking the public’s assistance in identifying a man found dismembered inside a rented storage unit late Monday night. Investigators have not released a name and say the victim was carrying identification belonging to another individual.

  This case is now believed to be connected to the recent deaths of two Billings detectives, as well as a fire at a private research facility earlier this week. Federal agencies have joined the investigation, citing concerns about possible corporate whistleblowing and the destruction of sensitive biomedical materials.”

  Footage cut to flashing cruiser lights, yellow tape, and the blurred interior of a storage bay—just a smear of red and silver where the body should have been. Then to the scorched remains of the MentaTech lab. Then to the FBI seal.

  Noel couldn’t breathe.

  Tyson muted the TV but didn’t look away. He whispered, “Is that…?”

  Noel nodded once, barely. “Eric.”

  Noel barely heard the rest. Her mind had already supplied the missing context: Eric in Beirut, restless and grinning, talking too fast as he sketched theoretical graft matrices on a napkin; Eric in that bunker, standing over the reanimated Marine and the biomech abomination, eyes shining. Eric, calling her “my favorite Stowers” in that unctuous tone that made her skin crawl. Eric, betraying his country to Caliber long before she had done the same by staying.

  She felt Tyson’s gaze on her. When she turned, his face was tight, eyes dark in a way that had nothing to do with the dim lamplight.

  “You remember him,” she said, though it wasn’t a question.

  “Hard to forget,” Tyson replied quietly. “Don’t think I could ever forget.”

  “He was deep in that research,” Noel said slowly. “Remember? I mean, it was my research, but he really took it to the extreme. And he was still at it. I don’t—I don’t know what to make of it.”

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  “I remember,” Tyson said. He hesitated, then added, “This doesn’t feel like random.”

  “No,” Noel said. “It doesn’t.”

  The anchor moved on to weather. Tyson switched off the TV. For a long moment, they stood in the sudden silence, the faint hum of the refrigerator and the soft ticking of the living room clock stretching too loud.

  “Maybe it’s coincidence,” Tyson said eventually.

  “No,” Noel repeated, with more conviction this time. “It’s not. I’m sure of it.”

  Perimeter tightened within a week. The decision to move deeper into the Imperial Valley came in layers, each one thin enough to ignore until they added up to something heavy. The first layer was Tyson pointing out that the shop’s location on a busy corner made casual surveillance too easy. The second was Noel noticing the same sedan drive past their house three times in one day. The third was Nolan telling her, casually over breakfast, that he thought he’d seen the same man standing across from his school “a lot of days.”

  They sold the house and the shop in quick succession, shifting to a smaller, more isolated property outside a town that barely appeared on most maps. The new place came with a cinderblock outbuilding that had once been used to store agricultural equipment. Noel saw it and immediately thought: lab.

  They kept the Peters name. They told the boys they were moving because the air was cleaner out here, the stars were brighter, and their dad wanted more space to work on “projects.” The boys shrugged and adapted. Children had an awful resilience that sometimes made Noel want to both thank and curse the universe.

  The TV stayed on more often after that. In 1999, another news anchor’s measured tone turned the air to ice.

  Noel had been in her new “office”—the converted outbuilding, now wired with scavenged receivers, an ancient shortwave radio, and a mismatched cluster of monitors showing nothing more sinister than traffic cameras and static—when Tyson called out from the house. The urgency in his voice sent her running.

  The screen showed a quiet suburban street cordoned off with police tape and squad cars, a modest two-story home blurred in the background. The chyron read: “Virginia Family Slain, Father Missing.”

  “Authorities are searching for Mortimer ‘Jax’ Jackson,” the anchor said, “in connection with the brutal killings of his wife and two children, whose bodies were discovered in their home earlier today. Sources say the victims suffered multiple stab wounds. Jackson, an engineer and contractor with ties to several defense-related firms, has not been located and is currently considered a person of interest.”

  A photograph appeared: Jax, younger than Noel remembered but unmistakable, looking slightly off to the side of the camera as if someone had called his name a moment too late.

  Noel’s breath left her in a sound that wasn’t quite a gasp. Her hands flew to her mouth. Memories collided—Jax’s dry humor, his impatience with bureaucracy, the way he joked about “building skeleton keys for god-machines.” The terrified urgency in his letters after Beirut. The long silence that had followed when he’d gone underground.

  “He didn’t do this,” she said, her voice raw.

  Tyson didn’t answer immediately. His jaw worked, eyes fixed on the screen even after the segment cut to a press conference with a local sheriff who looked more exhausted than competent.

  “Noel,” Tyson began carefully, “we don’t know—”

  “He did not kill his family,” she snapped, turning on him with more force than she intended. “You know him. You know what we saw. You think he’s capable of that?”

  Tyson’s gaze shifted to her, steady and assessing. He had been a Marine long enough to understand that people could be pushed past breaking in ways they never anticipated. But he also knew Jax had been many things—bitter, disillusioned, reckless. Not cruel.

  “No,” he said finally. “I don’t think he did.”

  “Then who did?” she demanded, though they both already knew the answer.

  The walls began to close in after that. Noel stopped thinking of their security setup as paranoia and started thinking of it as the only logical response to a pattern everyone else refused to see. She spent long hours in the outbuilding, the glow of monitors etching permanent shadows under her eyes. She tuned the radio to frequencies most people didn’t know existed, listening for odd spikes, coded transmissions, any mention of names that made her stomach clench. She began building lists on legal pads—names of colleagues from the CRD, from Beirut, from the early days of HIVE and the WPU. She drew lines between them, annotating each entry with status updates gleaned from obscure obituaries, government bulletins, and the kind of low-level gossip that leaked around the edges of classified work.

  Next to most of the names she eventually wrote one of three words: Dead. Missing. Unknown.

  “Maybe you shouldn’t do this,” Tyson said one night, leaning in the doorway of the outbuilding, arms folded. The boys were asleep in the house; the desert outside hummed with summer heat, even after dark. Noel sat amid scattered papers and tangled wires, hunched over a monitor streaming a grainy recording of a congressional hearing on defense spending.

  “Do what?” she asked without turning.

  “Stare at the same ghosts until they start staring back,” he said. “You’re not going to like where this ends.”

  “It ends where it already is,” she said tiredly. “We’re already on the list. I just want to know who’s still around to pull the trigger.”

  He stepped into the room, picked up one of her sheets. The list of names had grown over the months, ink darkening around the entries she circled again and again. He recognized some—Ducks, Jackson, a few others he’d met in Beirut in passing—but most were strangers.

  “You’re not going to find peace in these,” he said.

  “Peace is a luxury,” Noel replied. “Survival isn’t.”

  By 2000, the outbuilding had transformed into a full-fledged counter-surveillance nest. Noel installed directional antennas on the roof, borrowed software from forums she should not have known about, and rigged a set of crude alerts to ping her whenever certain key phrases appeared in news feeds or government bulletins. She stopped sleeping through the night, waking at odd hours to check logs, to listen, to re-run searches on databases she technically had no access to anymore.

  Tyson handled the outward-facing parts of their lives. He took the boys to school, then to their activities. He found odd jobs in neighboring towns, working under the table for farmers and small businesses, trading labor for cash and favors. He maintained the vehicles, stocked supplies, taught Nolan how to patch a tire and Tyler how to navigate with paper maps. On the surface, they were a quiet family living a slightly off-grid life in the desert, the kind of people small towns didn’t look at too closely if they paid their bills and didn’t make trouble.

  Noel’s paranoia grew teeth. She began watching their neighbors with the same intensity she once reserved for status reports and prototype diagnostics. The new mailman who took an extra second looking at their box. The woman at the grocery store who asked one too many questions about where they were “from originally.” The unfamiliar car parked too long at the edge of the school lot. None of these things, on their own, meant anything. Together, they formed a mosaic of unease.

  She taught the boys what to do if someone came to the house asking questions. She made them practice drills—where to go, what to say, how to slip out the back if the front door wasn’t safe. Nolan treated it like another mission, solemn and focused. Tyler disapproved at first, his logical mind chafing against the nebulous nature of the threat, but he played along when he saw the strain in his mother’s face.

  “Do you think they’re coming?” Nolan asked one night, lying on his bed, staring at the ceiling. Noel sat at the edge of the mattress, adjusting the small sensor she’d installed at his window.

  “I think we’d be stupid to assume they’re not,” she said. It wasn’t the answer a child needed. It was the only one she knew how to give.

  Tyson pulled her aside later, as she left his room, his voice low. “You can’t keep them on red alert forever,” he said. “They’re kids, Noel. Not recruits.”

  “They’re our kids,” she whispered. “They deserve to know why we’re like this.”

  “Do they?” he asked. “Or do they just deserve parents who are trying?”

  “What do you think I’m doing?” she snapped, the fatigue and fear bubbling up.

  He held her gaze, steady. “I know exactly what you’re doing. I just don’t want to lose you to it.”

  By 2002, Noel’s nightmares had crystallized into vivid loops she could not break. She saw the Beirut barracks in flames, only now the building was any building—her house, the boys’ school, the mechanic shop they once owned. She saw HIVE terminals fused to flesh, Marines walking with dead eyes, cyborgs rising from operating tables with her algorithms humming behind their vacant stares. She saw Nancy’s face projected on a hundred screens, calm and composed as she lied through perfect teeth about humanitarian efforts and technological miracles.

  In waking hours, her mind turned over the same question again and again: if Caliber had kept the technology alive after Beirut—and she knew they had—what were they using it for now? Where were the processors? Who wore her work in their bones?

  She didn’t call her mother. She thought of it sometimes, fingers hovering inches above the phone, dialing the first three digits of the number she still remembered from childhood before hanging up. The years between 1983 and 2002 stretched long and heavy in her mind. Every day she had not called became another reason not to. Every quiet holiday, every unacknowledged birthday, every news report about “unidentified victims” in attacks that might or might not have involved Caliber rewrote the story in her mind: calling would not save her mother; it would only bring the wolves to her door. So she listened. She watched. She built, and rebuilt, and fortified.

  Christmas of 2002 arrived on a cold wind that smelled faintly of rain, unusual for the valley. The boys were no longer boys, not really—Nolan thirteen, shoulders broadening, a hint of stubble he pretended not to be proud of; Tyler eleven, taller than most kids his age, his face angled toward whatever horizon only he could see. Tyson had more gray at his temples. Noel had more lines at the corners of her eyes, the kind carved by squinting into sun and screens.

  They trimmed a small artificial tree Tyson had picked up at a thrift store, decorating it with mismatched ornaments scavenged over the years—plastic bells, paper stars the boys had made in second grade, a single glass snowflake Noel had carried with her from her old life and never explained. The living room smelled of cinnamon and engine oil, the latter clinging to Tyson’s clothes no matter how often he washed them.

  Tyson put on a scratched Motown CD, and for a while the house felt almost ordinary.

  “Can we open one?” Nolan asked, eyeing the modest pile of wrapped packages under the tree. He was too old to believe in Santa and too young to admit he still wished he did.

  “After dinner,” Noel said, stirring the pot on the stove. The stew was simple—beans, potatoes, bits of sausage Tyson had bartered from a neighbor—but it filled the house with warmth.

  Tyson stepped up behind her, bumping her hip gently with his own. “Let him have one,” he said softly. “You’re running this like a drill.”

  She huffed, half laugh, half sigh. “Fine. One.”

  They ate. They let the boys tear into a few gifts: a paperback for Tyler about grandmasters, a secondhand skateboard for Nolan that he pretended to find inadequate and then refused to put down. They laughed when the boys bickered over which movie to watch. Tyson stepped outside once to check the perimeter, more out of habit than immediate concern.

  Noel caught herself, standing near the window, thinking: This is what we stole from them when we left. Normal Christmases. Grandparents. Cousins.

  She swallowed the thought like glass and turned back to the tree.

  Later, when the boys were half-asleep in a tangle of blankets on the floor, a movie’s end credits scrolling silently across the darkened screen, Noel stepped out into the cold night air. The sky was clear, stars sharp and innumerable. The desert stretched away from the house in all directions, a vast dark ocean that felt both protective and isolating.

  Tyson joined her, handing over a mug of something hot. She took it, fingers grateful for the heat.

  “It was a good day,” he said.

  “Good enough,” she replied. “As good as it gets.”

  He studied her profile. “You’ve been somewhere else all night.”

  She let the silence hang for a long moment, watching her breath fog in the air. “I was thinking about my mother,” she said finally.

  Tyson said nothing, but she felt his attention sharpen.

  “I haven’t spoken to her since…” She trailed off, realizing she could not easily quantify that absence. Not in days or months or even years. It felt geological. “Since before we left. Before Beirut. Before I knew what any of this would be.”

  “You were trying to protect her,” Tyson said quietly.

  “I was trying to protect myself,” Noel countered. The admission surprised her with its own honesty. “I told myself it was for her, but if I really believed that, I would have called at least once to see if she was alive.”

  “You don’t know that she’s not,” he said gently.

  “No,” Noel agreed. “I don’t.”

  “And that bothers you.”

  “It terrifies me,” she said. “Because if she’s alive, it means I left her to live in fear without answers. And if she’s dead…” Her voice tightened. “If she’s dead, it means they found her because of me—or that they never had to, because I never gave them a reason to look in the first place.”

  Tyson leaned against the porch railing, the wood creaking under his weight. “You can’t hold all of that.”

  “Who else is supposed to?” she asked.

  For a moment, the only sound was the distant rustle of dry brush in the wind.

  “What are you afraid is coming?” he asked.

  She hesitated, the words lining up behind her teeth like a confession. “Ducks,” she said softly. “Jax. The others. They weren’t accidents. They were cleanup. And cleanup only makes sense if there’s still a mess.”

  Tyson nodded slowly. “You think they’re still working the program. HIVE. The streams. The machines.”

  “I know they are,” she said. “You don’t throw away something that powerful because a barracks exploded and a lab burned down. You just move it. Bury it deeper. Put a prettier name on it. Sell it as medicine.”

  “CRD-Medical,” he said, tasting the words.

  Noel’s jaw tightened. She had seen the articles—profiles in trade journals about groundbreaking treatments, regenerative therapies, neural recovery techniques. The branding was clean, the patients photogenic, the PR immaculate. She recognized the formulas in their patents the way a mother recognized a child’s handwriting.

  “They’re going to hurt more people with what I built,” she said. “And sooner or later, someone is going to ask where the designs came from. Someone is going to follow a trail.”

  “To you,” Tyson asked.

  “To us,” she answered quietly. “You were on that base. You were in that lab. Our names are probably tangled up together in more ways than we know. If Caliber decides they need to finish the job they started in Beirut, they’re not going to care what we built here. They’re just going to see loose ends.”

  Tyson was silent for a long moment. When he spoke, his voice was steady. “Then we treat it like what it is,” he said. “An eventuality. Not a possibility.”

  “What does that mean?” she asked.

  “It means we stop pretending we can go back,” he said. “That I’m going to reenlist. That you’re going to find some clean lab job if this ever blows over. That the boys will grow up thinking their dad just did a tour and came home and that’s the end of it. We’ve been living like maybe we can rejoin the world if we behave well enough, keep our heads down, pay our taxes, show up to PTA meetings. But that’s not true, and you know it.”

  She watched his profile in the dim porch light, the lines of his face hardened by years he had not entirely spent in peace. “So what are you saying?”

  “I’m saying we start planning for a life where we don’t expect the world to welcome us back,” he said. “Where we pick and choose our contacts. Where we teach the boys how to survive without assuming a uniform or a badge means safety. Where we accept that whatever’s coming…we face it together, not as people hoping to be left alone, but as people ready to move if we have to.”

  “Move where?” she whispered.

  “Wherever we have to,” he said simply. “Whenever it’s necessary.”

  Noel closed her eyes briefly, feeling the weight of it settle around her shoulders. A part of her had clung, secretly and stubbornly, to the fantasy that one day they might return to some version of normal life—that Tyson might get his records straightened out, that she might quietly apply to some anonymous engineering position, that their sons might grow up with college brochures instead of exit strategies. That fantasy died on that porch, under a sky full of indifferent stars.

  Inside, the boys stirred in their sleep, the shifting glow of the television reflecting off their faces. Noel thought of her father, alone in a grave she had only visited by proxy. She thought of her mother, somewhere on the other side of the country, maybe alive, maybe not, maybe wondering every day what had happened to her daughter. She thought of Jax’s children, whose Christmases were over. Of Ducks. Of the patients smiling on glossy brochures, unaware of the ghosts humming in the circuitry of their “miracles.”

  A part of her had died in Ducks’ lab. Another part had withered in the outbuilding under the hum of radios. Tonight, something else changed shape—a hardening, a narrowing of focus.

  If CRD-Medical was going to dress her father’s work in white coats and charity drives, then one day, somehow, she would be there to burn it down. For now, she turned back toward the warm light spilling from the open door and stepped inside, the weight of her choices following close behind.