Introduction

  The way I see it, mankind is born doing things backward. Think about it. We arrive in this world upside down, and naturally do the opposite of what is right. Then, we learn to automatically dismiss anything different from what we believe or don't completely understand. We fall in love with reverse love, and it feels good!

  As humans we tend to turn our faces away from righteousness. We fail to look past today and see beyond our current situation. Too many of us live for the moment and think we have thirty plus years of life to make it all up. I'm guilty of doing this.

  I graduated from high school with my whole life in front of me. I decided I wanted to party while I was still young. I smoked weed, had sex outside of marriage, and got so drunk I would pass out in my own vomit.

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  I decided I wanted to party while I was still young. You know what I'm saying? I just wanted to enjoy my youth.

  My life sounds good, doesn't it? I mean, minus the passing out part. Yolo right? I had to get it all in before I got older and started my own family. I figured every day I woke up was another opportunity to live it up. It was my God given right. Young, handsome and healthy, I was in charge of my destiny. I didn't know this lifestyle of mine would end without any warning.

  My name is Jamal Rollson, and I would like to show you how I view this world. You may think this is all a little too ridiculous, so come take my shoes and walk in them. Open your mind as I take you on this journey.

  It all started with me laying in a puddle

  of my own blood.