Did I mean nothing to her?

  Was it all really just a dream?

  Entering Serene’s room I half expect her to come towards me with that dazzling smile of hers – but she isn’t even there.

  Did they transfer her somewhere else or what?

  I have taken a round of the hospital at least thrice but she’s nowhere to be found.

  You know what breaks me? That she doesn’t even consider me important enough to say goodbye. Like, she just left… without a single word. A single bye would have sufficed but am I not good enough for her to say that also?

  Perhaps I’m not…

  I gingerly climb on her bed hugging her pillow just to bury my face in it.

  I feel abandoned. Rejected.

  I… I don’t understand. Whatever was between us has to mean something and I swear it did.

  Or maybe I was just dumb…

  I hug her pillow closer as the messy emotions in my head start escaping through my eyes.

  Sitting there, I realize that maybe she meant more to me than I could ever mean to her. It stings so bad. For her, it was probably just a night out but for me— it was everything. Every single action of mine that day was an expression of words I wouldn’t dare to say out loud. I still can’t comprehend that she simply… left. Still can’t wrap my head around the fact that this isn’t a nightmare.

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  My eyes dart around the room yearning to see her again because the truth is, even if she doesn’t give a damn about me I will continue to lay my heart bare in front of her, not because I can, but because I can’t stop myself from doing so.

  At the end of the day, not all nightmares end with waking up, do they?

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  It’s been four hours...and these four hours have been pure torture for me. After crying for about an hour or two I went back to my room, my eyes red and puffy. Right now, Dr. Inez is desperately trying to figure out what’s wrong and failing to do so because I simply refuse to speak. Why you ask? because I simply don’t want to. The world made me realise that at some point, neither your words nor your tears mean anything to anyone.

  She looks at me with concern in her gaze “Nico, you were fine until yesterday. what happened right now huh?”

  Silence.

  I hear her take a sigh, frustrated and worried all at once.

  In the next few minutes, she tries to pry information out of me, but I do what I do best, not say a single word. Silence is the only weapon I have on me right now and I think I’m slowly learning how to use it.