My body hurts

  Well that's not anything that is new to me but my joints feel more vulnerable

  I shifted on the bed in the clinic

  Then I massaged my wrists that were holding the game console

  The console that was beside me on the bed

  It was a bit old fashioned but it was something that had been with me for a considerable amount of time

  I loosened the my uniform and shifted my legs about to regain some feeling

  Luckily I was wearing pants and not a skirt that was required of the female students

  My eyes turned to the surroundings in the clinic

  The wall was standard white and pristine

  The air was drenched in the smell that is uniquely attributed to drugs

  It disgusted me

  I had been living in all kinds of places that had this smell

  To people it smelled like a cure but to me it was a prison

  A prison of white wall, doctors and nurses running around

  The annoyance on their face as they had to deal with me

  If their thoughts could be spoken in words then it would be just one

  Again

  With a heavy indication of annoyance

  And I would respond with a sarcastic smile

  It could be understood as

  Does it look like I'm struggling to get through this

  Does it look like I wanted to wake up and face the seizures again

  Honestly to a bystander it just looks scary

  But to the person who actually goes through the seizures it feels terrifying

  First of all your body starts to hurt in the joints

  And somehow that's more pain than regular places would cause the body

  Then your brain feels like someone is tossing it around

  Your whole body becomes stimulated and the whole world is making you vibrate

  No it's the foaming at the mouth that people see

  I have more seizures than normal people or more accurately people who have seizures

  The doctor's say I have a rare disease that was developed due to the natural disasters

  The chemicals in the air affected my body function and made it all jumbled up inside

  The symptoms are random but it always starts with pain

  Followed by seizures

  Then I cough out some blood

  Luckily my parents own a huge hospital before the disaster and were something like medical royalty

  So I didn't die in the natural disasters

  But alas they gave birth to a beautiful baby boy and I wasn't needed

  Honestly I could see their patience to deal with me dwindling by the day

  It wasn't a problem of expenses that annoyed them but it was the length of time that was irritating

  After all they had a stockpile of drugs with them during the disaster

  Drugs that were used to get a firm foothold in those dark times

  And also made them reach the top in life after humanity settled down

  They are now in charge of the medical part of the new society

  As such a boy to take over was more important than someone who was going to die soon

  The doctor and nurses in charge of me were counting down the months till my death

  My parents and my stuck up brother who was three years younger than me were counting down the days

  I was counting down the seconds till my death

  But pining for death daily does get quite boring

  And there's nothing more depressing than these three places

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  A funeral, a hospital and lastly high school

  I've been to a hospital and I'm going to a funeral as the main participant soon enough so the only place left was high school

  Though this doesn't really count as attending high school

  Considering this morning started with a dizzy fit

  The wretched weather that made the sun shine today caused this

  And I being the frail about to die human being, ended up passing out from heat stroke

  Plus this stupid school just had to make their buildings far from the entrance

  I was dropped off at the gate by the driver who zoomed away as soon as I got off

  I also politely extended a middle finger to the departing vehicle

  Anyway some students brought me to the clinic

  It seemed like there was an outbreak of fainting sickness all around because there were a lot of people

  I was reminded of someone who came to the clinic but left once they saw the huge crowd

  I think it was a plump male student

  Anyway I woke up in the clinic and just gave up going to ckassy

  Luckily I didn't have any seizures in school yet and scare my future classmates

  Though it would happen eventually

  And then I would be known as the ghost of the clinic

  Because my appearance is what you would imagine a frail dying old woman would look like

  Sunken cheeks, dark circles and thin bones

  But due to my young age, it was a little bit better

  Not to ghastly but sickly

  Anyway it was very clear that I was dying

  Honestly why did I even come to school

  What's the point

  Ah right, I was simply bored

  My parents who had completely abandoned me to the hospital

  They had made me a special ward so that I won't interact with anyone except the doctors and nurses

  Then they told everyone that I had died

  I know because I saw the news of my death

  I wasn't worried about the repercussions of that news

  It probably meant that my family was tired of dealing with me so they decisively cut me off

  I had no more use

  I mean when I was little, I might have been used as a bargaining chip

  Or would have been sold to a rich powerful fat man

  Or sold off for marriage

  But as days passed, I could barely move

  My skin was dry and sickly

  I had dark shades under my eyes

  My hair was like straw, thin and coarse

  And my figure was sunken

  My chest size and butt size could be described as malnourished and even more malnourished

  So my sexual appeal or "marriage appeal" as they call it was equal and less than zero

  So to the news that I was abandoned, I only thought one thing;

  I was like hey I haven't died yet

  But hopefully the death flag you set up for me just might do the trick

  It read and I quote" it was a sad thing to die to an unknown disease"

  "And so this new disease which has been studied and the cure has been found and tested"

  "In honor of my daughter's brave pursuit to saving lives, the disease is now called Harrison's disease"

  Then cue the tear works

  The public was touched by their devotion to medicine and saving lives

  I was touched that they made sure to set up such a wonderful death flag for me

  I promise to try my best to meet up with your expectations

  Though there was something that I found amusing

  First of all, there's no actual cure to this disease and I'm the only one who has it

  Second of all this news meant that I was no longer a Harris so why would you name it Harrison's disease

  It's the family name that's Harris

  My name is -one who is about to die,

  Or the dying one

  Or the terminally ill patient

  Or the one who is pitiful

  Or are you still alive

  All these have been names that I have been given

  And each time I bless their heart for setting up my death flag

  Jeez these guys work harder than I do

  Meanwhile my effort consists of not taking my medicine and eat random junk that the moment provides

  Then I have episodes again

  And then I try to bite my tongue

  Tsk but it never works

  I pass out before my teeth could apply enough force

  Then I wake up with a new strategy

  My most recent one is playing games

  And I mean very stimulating games that gets your heart pumping

  See I had this old console from trash I picked up in the wreckage

  Everything else was broken and I was bored laying there waiting to see if my parents would care enough to rescue me

  There were witnesses that day so they had to

  But they were really reluctant

  I was just chill

  Anyway I picked it up because it was beside me and started to play the game

  I couldn't move anyway

  Then I just kept it with me and played it during the silence

  The silence of living in the hospital with no one visiting you or who cares about you

  Only the screams from emergency patients

  Or the sobs of those whose family had died

  Utterly depressing

  Anyway I asked my parents to improve the console using that new mineral that was discovered

  Well it wasn't asking but more like I told them I would post a video of myself cutting my wrist and blaming it on them on the Internet

  They thought I was joking

  I thought that statement was hilarious so I laughed

  Then I stabbed my thigh with a knife

  They frowned and called the doctor that was always on standby

  Long story short I was patched up and my console was sent to the tech company owned by the Ming family and acquired that new ore

  Those guys were quite good at tech stuff so my console was super high tech with a limitless battery supply

  I happily went to school with my new console that doubled as a phone

  Now here I am

  I woke up a few minutes ago and just continued playing games

  Then I stopped playing due to my ailing body and enjoyed the sight of the grass on the school field being illuminated by the sun while resting

  I wish I could be an athlete and do sports

  Not the normal ones but the extreme ones

  If there was something I regret in life, it's that I could never willingly engage in dangerous activities that court death while calling it a sport

  Sigh such is life sometimes

  I have no money to my name and I was kicked out of my family

  Only the game console to comfort me

  Now I'm looking at all the students who had collapsed

  I couldn't move much because it was exhausting so I turned my head around

  These guys seemed to have a bad skin day or something because most of them had black spots

  Well there was one or two who had no black spots

  But there veins were popping out and there eyes were squeezed shut

  They looked in pain while those with black spots looked peaceful

  The nurse in charge was busy directing them to beds and wondering what happened to them

  Suddenly one of those with black spots rose up

  It attracted a lot of attention from the nurse

  After all, everyone else was unconscious and I was laying down

  So someone sitting up was inconspicuous

  The nurse hurried to the male student to ask what was wrong

  The nurse was checking his wrist when I saw it

  I was close to their position and saw the male student with red eyes that opened his mouth wide

  He bit into the nurse's shoulder and she screamed

  She moved back pressing her hand on the wound

  Suddenly the other students with black spots woke up

  There was mayhem as those who were bringing in students ran back out

  The turned student started attacking random people

  And those random people included me

  Obviously I was shocked and tried to get out of the bed

  But I didn't even make it halfway off the bed before my hands slipped and I fell off the bed

  The zombie was on me biting at my shoulder

  I gasped at the pain and coughed out blood

  My eyes rolled back and I knew this was it

  This was the death flag that I was preparing for

  But why zombies

  I might be used to pain but it doesn't make it any less painful; I thought dryly as I gave in

  He he

  Ha ha

  Let's spread death upon this desolate world and purge it