The greenhouse is quiet in the morning.

  Just me and the plants and the sound of water hitting soil.

  I’ve been coming up here every day now. Not because I have to. Because I want to. Because there’s something about watching things grow that settles something in my chest I didn’t know was restless.

  The chamomile sprouted first. Tiny green shoots pushing through the dirt like they had somewhere important to be. I watered them carefully, not too much, learning the difference between damp and drowned.

  I killed my first batch of thyme by overwatering. Watched the stems turn black and soft, collapsing under their own weight because I’d loved them to death.

  I killed my second batch of lavender by underwatering. Let the soil crack and harden, let the plants shrivel into brown husks because I’d forgotten they needed me.

  But I learned.

  That’s the thing about plants. They don’t lie. They don’t pretend. You do it right, they grow. You do it wrong, they die. Simple. Honest. Fair.

  I like that.

  The mint is thriving now. Too well, actually. It’s trying to take over the entire table, sending runners into neighboring pots like an invasion. I had to separate it, give it its own space, contain it before it strangled everything else.

  The jasmine likes the south-facing glass. Needs warmth but not direct heat. I moved it three times before I found the right spot, and now it’s finally flowering—small white blooms that smell like summer even when the city outside is gray and cold.

  The borage grows fast. Faster than I expected. Big leaves, delicate blue flowers. It doesn’t mind being crowded, doesn’t compete with the other plants. Just grows steady and strong, exactly like Dimitri’s notes said it would.

  I’m getting better at this.

  Not perfect. Not yet.

  But better.

  And that feeling—that slow, steady improvement—is better than any drink I’ve ever had.

  I spend an hour up here most mornings. Sometimes more. Just checking on things. Trimming dead leaves. Adjusting pots. Making sure everything has what it needs.

  It’s quiet work.

  The kind that lets my brain settle after a night of brewing and testing and holding intent until my head aches.

  Up here, I don’t have to think about what comes next.

  I just have to keep things alive.

  And I’m good at it.

  The library smells like old paper and floor polish.

  I’ve claimed a table in the back corner, near the windows where the light is good. Nobody bothers me here. The librarian stopped watching me after the third visit, once she realized I wasn’t going to cause trouble.

  I come here to learn what Dimitri didn’t write down.

  His grimoire has recipes, instructions, margins full of cramped notes. But it assumes you already know things. Assumes you understand why certain plants work together, why temperature matters, why timing can’t be rushed.

  So I’m filling in the gaps.

  I’ve read four books on botany. Three on herbalism. Two on the chemistry of plant compounds and how they interact with heat and alcohol and time.

  I’m learning that Dimitri wasn’t guessing.

  Everything he wrote has roots in real science. Real methods that people have used for centuries. He just… pushed further. Bent the rules until they broke in useful ways.

  And now I’m learning to do the same.

  I fill my notebook with diagrams. Chemical structures I barely understand but am starting to recognize. Notes on why hibiscus turns dark when steeped too long, why shungiku’s bitterness fades if you add it too early, why borage is the lock that makes everything else hold.

  It’s not magic.

  It’s craft.

  Precise, measurable, repeatable craft.

  And I’m getting better at it every day.

  I lose track of time in this library. Hours pass like minutes. The light shifts across my table and I don’t notice until the words on the page start to blur and I realize I’ve been reading without blinking.

  I like it here.

  Nobody knows what I’m working on. Nobody asks. Nobody cares.

  I’m just another person in a library, trying to learn something.

  Except what I’m learning isn’t in any of these books.

  What I’m learning is how to take what’s written and make it mine.

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  How to understand the principles well enough that I don’t need recipes anymore.

  Just knowledge.

  And intent.

  The diner is mostly empty this time of night.

  Just me and a couple of truckers at the counter and a waitress who refills my coffee without asking because she’s learned I’ll be here a while.

  I’ve spread my notebook across the table. Pages and pages of notes, corrections, observations. A record of every brew I’ve made, every failure, every success, every lesson learned the hard way.

  I’m reviewing my work on Saint’s Swallow.

  Not because I need to. Because I want to see how far I’ve come.

  The first attempt was a disaster. Dead liquid. No weight. No intent. Just expensive tea that did nothing.

  The second attempt was closer. The color was right, the smell was right, but it still didn’t hold.

  The third attempt—after I added borage—that’s when it locked.

  I can see the progression in my notes. See how my handwriting gets more confident. How my observations get more precise. How I stop guessing and start knowing.

  Hibiscus - steep 15 min at low heat. Too hot = acrid. Too cool = weak.

  Shungiku - add at end. Fresh preferred. Dried reduces potency ~30%.

  Borage - critical. Bruise, don’t crush. This is the lock.

  Intent - truth as unavoidable fact. Hold image of resistance breaking.

  I’ve made Saint’s Swallow twelve times now.

  The last six batches have been perfect. Consistent. Reliable.

  That’s not luck.

  That’s mastery.

  I flip to a blank page and start sketching out my next project.

  Not because Oscar asked for it. Not because I need it for survival.

  Because I want to see if I can do it.

  A suggestion brew. Something subtle. Something that makes ideas feel like they came from inside you instead of outside.

  I don’t have all the pieces yet. Don’t know all the ingredients.

  But I have the concept.

  And I have time.

  The coffee goes cold while I work. The diner empties out. The waitress starts wiping down tables, giving me looks that say you gonna order something else or are you just camping here?

  I leave a tip. Pack up my notes. Walk out into the cold.

  The city is quiet. Dark. The kind of dark that makes you remember you’re small.

  But I don’t feel small.

  I feel focused.

  Because I know something now that I didn’t know a month ago.

  I’m good at this.

  Not just competent. Not just lucky.

  Good.

  I can take plants and heat and intent and make something impossible real.

  I can look at a problem—how to hide something, how to extract truth, how to make people believe their own thoughts—and solve it.

  Not because someone taught me.

  Because I taught myself.

  And that feeling—that deep, bone-certain knowledge that I’m capable of things other people can’t even imagine—

  That’s better than any high I’ve ever chased.

  Better than any drink.

  Better than any woman.

  Better than anything.

  I’m building something.

  Not for Oscar. Not for survival.

  For me.

  Because I can.

  And I’m not stopping.

  The workshop is dark when I get back.

  I don’t turn on the light right away.

  Just stand there in the doorway, looking at the workbench, the shelves lined with bottles, the stove that’s become as familiar as my own hands.

  This is mine.

  Not because I own it. Because I earned it.

  Every bottle on that shelf represents hours of work. Failures. Adjustments. Breakthroughs.

  Every plant in the greenhouse upstairs is something I kept alive through attention and care and the slow accumulation of knowledge.

  Every page in my notebook is proof that I’m not the same person I was a month ago.

  I’m better.

  Smarter.

  More capable.

  And I’m just getting started.

  I close the door, lock it, and head upstairs to sleep.

  Tomorrow I’ll check the greenhouse. Water what needs watering. Trim what needs trimming.

  Tomorrow I’ll go back to the library. Read more. Learn more. Fill more gaps in my knowledge.

  Tomorrow I’ll sit in that diner and plan the next brew. The next challenge. The next impossible thing I’m going to make real.

  Because this is who I am now.

  Not Garrett the nobody.

  Not Garrett the desperate.

  Garrett the chemist.

  Garrett the builder.

  Garrett the man who makes impossible things work.

  And I’m never going back.????????????????